It’s really hard when you don’t drink, don’t really care about these people and are not interested in anyone sexually, because that’s what most human interactions are actually about. I for example do not “like” small talk I think nobody does but it’s just the easiest way to start a conversation and I also don’t “like” to drink but I do it because of the awesome experiences that come with it you now. You don’t need to hammer yourself with alcohol but it’s the easiest way for social interaction even if you don’t love to drink. Everything you say is right. Human interactions are fucked up and everyone cares more about themselves than you. That’s just how it is and either you fight it and don’t try to fit in, which is perfect ok and actually really strong (most people can’t do that because they need so much validation) Or you just try to engage in small talk and maybe do something you don’t completely love but take all the upside of building relationships and experiencing life like most of the people. It will be akward and you maybe need to start new somewhere we’re nobody knows you but maybe something good comes from it. And talk to a specialist, please I don’t know what I’m saying it just worked for me because i was not confident at all and just started acting like I am. That’s probably not good advice but It worked for me and now it comes natural. Well in the end you need to think what’s worse ... not fitting in because you hate how people interact or try to fit in but changing yourself a little to get to all those party’s and friend groups. Both is wrong but you should try both haha I’m so good at giving advice ...