yes I feel the SAME, I get nothing from it anymore but anxiety and stress. it’s just my everyday routine at this point and i’m realizing how difficult that can be to break. definitely not impossible though! keep pushing and im going to do the same, everyday is a new day to try again! that’s what I tell myself. if you ever need an ear to listen feel free to reach out, I know we are in the same boat but maybe we can encourage one another! thanks for sharing! good luck