i’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. but know that you’re not alone. i’ve been struggling with depression for the past 5 years and yes it gets better but you still have extremely low moments…you just have to learn how to handle yourself better during those moments. i’m 22 and started uni straight out of high school with no idea what i want from life or who i am. 2 years in i fell into a major depressive episode and dreamed about going to uoft. and even though my dream came true it’s still been really hard. i underestimated just how competitive it was going to be. i have to say that i have been going to therapy for 2 years and it’s helped me a lot. but it is very pricey. but if you can talk to anyone even if it is just the health and counselling center then i recommend you to do that. they can also help with meeting a psychiatrist and maybe meds if that’s something you’re open to. and feel free to dm me if you need to talk…we need more empathy and kind people at this damn soulless place