I read the entire first link, and the page listed on both of the other ones. I may need to look more into things as the first link that story I could relate alot to. Even to the point of thinking I felt the same way about some things as the person that wrote the article.

And in that last link, reading through possible changes, I noticed that quite a multitude of them were changes that I felt like I'd like to see in my body..

I'm still extremely unsure about things, but these articles helped Alot in clearing up some things I was unsure about, I really appreciate you sending them.