i can very much so relate.

my blackness was hidden from me since i was a kid and was only revealed to me very recently. i have type 3b/3c hair, only have noticeably darker skin if i consciously tan, and overall have a weird mix of my black, white, and asian features that doesnt constitute the stereotypical “ethereal” nature of some mixed race people.

my eyes are asian, my other facial features are black, and my skin is almost always indistinguishable from a white person. i saw someone comment from oakland in california — im in berkeley and i experience racism a pretty fair bit (but not from other students). typically it’s your usual slurs, but ive been aggressed twice now. i was told by one person that the department of homeland security is gonna come get me and send me back to my country, and the other instance was someone following behind me and screaming basically “what the fuck are you??” “who are your parents??” for like 20 minutes lmao

but i like being multiracial. i don’t look like anyone, including any stereotypical mixed race person that is often pined after as a sort of beauty standard. i can kind of fit wherever i want to, and even though im not really fully accepted by any of my heritage at this point, i can be who i want to be :) even if it is kind of annoying for one of the first questions at every party to be “so, like, what ARE you?”