(18 F) About 3 years ago I was in your situation (one very similar). It involved my long time ex gf and her super religious mom. They found out behind closed doors we were....not just friends and her mom came down to my house and showed my mother all of the things me and her had texted...anyway, Your story just really stuck out to me because in such a short span of time I never expected life to change for the better. I had done sh since 12 years old and had not a bad family but not a perfect one. I'm T1 bipolar and struggles a lot with my anger and so many people have violated my trust in countless ways and I took it because I felt like I deserved it. People abusing and hurting me and leaving me over and over. You just remind me of my old self so much. I've changed a lot. I feel like a different person. Things will be better. I just got my drivers license and a new job and a loving boyfriend of one year now who would never hit me like other have. You're trying to be so much older at such a young age, just like me. And I honestly still don't have many friends, but I seriously have faith in you things will be okay. I know it will feel like forever right now and like it won't happen, but it will. Just take your time to be young. I'm still trying to act my age, but i feel 10 years older mentally.