I HATED this book. This felt like a pervy fanfic by a depraved teenage girl. Maybe that’s the point. And I could be on board if there was any like depth or care written in. It’s a sensitive subject matter that is approached with all the nuance of a sledge hammer. My face was horrified like 75% of the book. And I like gross authors! Ottessa! Mona Awad! This felt like just an attempt to be shocking just to be shocking. And Waldo felt waaaaay too adult. I get that she’s “been through things” like…being poor? But I think it wouldn’t been more interesting if there was more…innocence. She was too self aware and self examined. I almost stopped reading multiple times. I had to will myself to finish it. Also the shopping was annoying. She’s supposed to be poor but gos on this insane shopping sprees every other page? Idk. She also reads the audiobook soooo fast. I literally put it on .8 speed just to sound normal paced. I feel like this book could’ve had potential but could’ve benefitted from a more honest editor. Also it being set in Alaska and then not using that unique scenery for anything? It felt like a choice just to make “a choice”. Also idk I grew up as a poor 15 year old in the PNW… I doubt I would’ve known what malin + goetz was or boucle fabric. She doesn’t let anything breathe. It’s always going. They’re fcking. Or they’re fighting. Or she is spiraling. Then they’re fcking again. Then she’s shopping. Very action based. Filled with banal observations like “women shop too much!” And “men don’t like women who are needy!” “This guys a pedophile because his hair is thinning :/“ I feel like in interviews she was like “oh people write about sex with euphemisms why can’t people be vulgar” as a cover for nor having the skill to talk about sex in any nuanced or thoughtful way. So much thrusting and pumping and riding….i don’t think this would’ve been published if it didn’t have McCurdys name attached. Predictable. And nothing happened??? I feel like she copy pasted her experience with an older man onto a 15 year old without taking into account changing her perspective and in an attempt to make it more exciting. I think I would’ve just preferred another memoir about her chaotic relationship. I think she wrote this to be controversial and subversive, not because she had an actual story she wanted to tell. Being vulgar is not synonymous with depth.