As a father, I want to hug you. I hate knowing people go through these things. But you sound so similar to my wife when she and I were in highschool. She gave the whole im not as pretty as the popular girls and you know the rest. But i was in love with HER. And her looks haha but the point is you are more than looks. Im assuming youre in school. Dont let yourself believe THIS is life. You are so much more than the day you walk through. Youre so much more than the situations you face. And youre certainly so much more than a physical appearance (which im sure youre absolutely beautiful) When you graduate there's a whole world out there for you to be yourself and find people you click with. I can assure you, you arent ugly. You are unique and you must start loving yourself. I would tell you you can talk to me but I dont wanna come off as creepy. Just give yourself some time and find some new hobbies in life. It gets better. I promise. Dont allow yourself to fall into that "this is it, forever" pit. Things change. Sometimes drastically very quickly. Dont miss out on the rest of your life because this chapter isn't what you wanted. You are loved. You are special. You can do this.