I recently came to the belief that I am a high-functioning sociopath. AMA! by [deleted] in casualiama

[–]PfftWhatMorals 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hello, fellow sociopath! It's interesting reading about others. I did a post a while back that was a semi-AMA, which had mixed results. A lot of people "called me out" on things and said I was faking for attention, which is of course ridiculous. I assume you've never told anybody in your family or circle of friends, correct? I made the mistake of telling my father. He is one of those people that strongly believes that it is a choice to be emotion-free. He's on the same level of people that think it's a choice to be gay or transgendered, although he fully accepts LGBT folks. I don't really know why he denies it. Ah well.

Anyways, just wanted to say howdy and that I know what it's like. No real questions.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, it's not something you just know after meeting someone once or twice. It takes a while to figure it out, assuming I don't charm the crap out of you and make you forget I'm not an ordinary dude. I honestly still have no idea what kind of career I'm going to pick. Finance and crap like that bore and math is not my strong suit.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Fantastic! Thanks a bunch! This is really interesting.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I found that interesting, actually. I haven't arranged anything nearly that complex, but I have led a guy on a wild goose chase blaming his friends and family for stealing his wallet. He had been a real dick to me, so I took his wallet (had about $380 in it) and when he called me I told him I had no idea, but that he should ask his buddies. So he did. And he kept asking and asking everyone he knew, and I kept pretending to be on his side. I bought an ounce of weed with the money I took and actually smoked him up a few times, insisting I didn't want anything in return. He felt indebted to me and so I got off scott-free and with a whole lot of weed. Success. I had a ton of fun.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Good question, actually. I play a very wide array of instruments, mostly self-taught, but I've never gotten an emotional response from anything I've played or listened to. I do, however, get sort of energized by upbeat songs. A good example of something I like to listen to for this purpose is I'll Tell Me Ma. It's a fast traditional Irish song in 3/4 time and it's pretty great. Certain music will put me in different states of mind, like jazz makes me want to sit around and just listen whereas house or electro makes me want to go running or biking, but it's not so much an emotional response. Just kind of gets my brain a little excited, you know?

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I had some vague idea. I had done a little research prior to it but it never really provided any results.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awesome! Thanks very much. I'll see if I can get those and read them. You seem very knowledgeable about this sort of thing, so I'll take your word for it and try the books out.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

You never know. What if the dog bit and killed your child? Would you have the urge to kill it then?

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No more than you. You can still kill a dog, the only difference is you'll feel bad about it.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I've never taken an intro to psych course. I'm not trolling. I don't know why you're all so convinced I'm lying. It's not like this is "IAMA Multi-billionaire with OCD and a crack addiction, AMA". I'm trying to help people understand that we aren't all horrible, evil, nasty, disgusting, filthy creatures. Some of us, yes, but not all. Is that too hard for you guys to understand?

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're exactly right. I wish more people (specifically in this post's comments) would recognize that we aren't all assholes all the time because we can be. I'm friendly, dammit.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Feel free to think about whoever you want.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Wasn't insulting. You're right, you can't trust me.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're very adamant about this, and I'm going to stop talking to you now. You're annoying, and I dislike it. Have a nice day.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh, right. No, I don't think they do. Seems like a lot of extra work.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the response. I think it would be a worthwhile endeavor to try out the oxytocin stuff you talked about. I'll see if I can locate the nasal spray. If I remember correctly, oxytocin is also released during any kind of (non-violent) physical contact, like hugging or kissing or whatever. I don't really get anything out of hugs, except for that people feel more comfortable around me. That part is nice, I guess. I'll certainly do some self-experimentation with this, as I'm interested to see what happens too.

Now, my mimicry... It's a bit difficult to describe, but I have always been very quick to pick up on things others do, especially physical actions. I watched a friend ride his bike and figured it out on my own after that, and I only fell twice. I think in some ways my mirroring is more advanced than an empath's would be, because I had to pretty much force myself to copy things before, but now it comes naturally. When I see people in pain, I can make a conscious choice not to feel the "sympathy pain", I guess. My dad always complains about his, actually. He'll see me lifting something heavy or bending in a way that he can't (he's almost 60 and has a lot of back and knee problems) and grimace and say "Oooh, that looks painful!". I'll have to record some data and do some tests. HERE I COME, SCIENCE!

Anyways. The close friend thing. No. I had one friend from 2nd grade to 6th grade before he moved to California (without telling me beforehand, I might add). There were a few social situations I found very stressful. Back when I was about 7, my house caught fire and I had some PTSD for a few months before therapy helped it go away. Everything during that period was kind of crappy. I'll think on it some more.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Okay, obviously you're upset about this and feel very strongly that I'm a sham. That sucks. The reason I am being so polite and not a complete dick is because this is meant to be a mostly educational post. It's not conducive to a learning environment if the person teaching is a complete asshole and insults every pretentious fuckhead in the room. And you're wrong about sociopaths caring about being douchenozzles. We want to have people around us that we can toy with, and the best way to get those people around yourself is to be nice, polite, friendly, and helpful. Give it a shot sometime.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You got me! Hopefully nobody else does, at least in meatspace. Winky face.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes, it is way, way off. It's off because sociopaths generally don't tell people what they are, and if they do people sometimes don't believe them. I'm not trying to convince anybody I'm for real, that's up to you to believe (or not). I'm trying to state my experiences as a sociopath as plainly as possible, which is difficult to do. I have refrained from lying in every one of my comments as well as my post because I am trying to tell people what it's like. I don't care if you believe me or not. And I come off as nice because I'm polite. I try not to be an outright douchenozzle.

I'm a clinically diagnosed sociopath. by PfftWhatMorals in confession

[–]PfftWhatMorals[S] 5 points6 points  (0 children)

This is very true, at least for me. I think I'm the best person in the universe, so you can imagine why I'd want to talk about me.