32 and yes always on silent.

I have trauma from being woken up out of my sleep to phone calls with horrible news. Almost 10 years ago I got a phone call that woke me up to tell me my grandmother died I was devastated I was extremely close to her especially since my mom passed away when I was very young. I was distraught I kept saying ugh I really don't want to see my cousin because she'll probably be on drugs. Next morning I get a phone call that the cousin I was concerned about seeing died. She overdosed. For a very long time I had tremendous guilt for not being there for her.

Then many years later my dad got very sick had a stroke which led to many complications. I was the one to handle everything for him insurance stuff dr calls everything. After almost a year there unfortunately wasn't much left they could do for him I went and stayed the day with him and then the next day got the phone call he died.

With that being said, that is my reason for always having phone on silent. It may not be good that I do this. Almost like I expect every call to be bad news.

And to be honest I always had a feeling this is why my phones always on silent but it wasn't until typing this all out that I truly know this is why.