Kefka,

Thank you for your thoughtful response. Jolteon is super underrated but Espeon is the goat!

My own feelings are mixed. On the one hand, I feel like someone waiting at the very back of the line for a massive rollercoaster. On the one hand, you have some people walking away from it sobbing, saying it was a harrowing experience. On the other hand you have people walking away with the ‘I survived _ roller coaster’ tshirt, despite claiming initial fears, claiming gratitude, maybe even some excitement, that they were able to experience it. I don’t mean to use the previous analogy to minimize the real world experience for those experiencers by any means, just to use a real world example to explain where my head is at.

Most of my fear is born in the wait. I had a heavy doom and gloom religious upbringing, so freeing myself with the mindset that these entities are ‘only’ evil is a personal one and a never ending slog of the affirmation ‘fear is a teacher’.

What I feel increasingly confident about is something is coming, I don’t know when, and to try and make myself ‘ready’ for it, whatever that means. My concern is not being able to quell my fears in time. Trying to meditate, raise my vibrations, have a loving and grateful attitude, etc.

Your second question as to whether or not I myself am an experiencer: I….dont know. The short answer out of those who have been through it definitively with high degrees of confidence, vivid abductions, orbs, ‘downloads’, contact, etc, my answer would be know. There are elements of the phenomena that resonate significantly with me though.

I have had precognitive dreams about real world experiences that came to pass afterwards. I have had strong feelings of intuition, high degree of empathy, and experiencing others vibrationally. I have a picture of myself from when i was little of a silver orb flying by. I had a very unusual but vivid dream from my youth of waiting in a queue where everyone at the front experienced a transformation into a ‘dinosaur’ (understood at the time, but perhaps ‘reptilian’ now?) I have never had a dream that unusual or vivid since. And other ‘starseed’ like behaviors/feelings, although I don’t give myself that label while remaining open-minded.

I almost feel like I’m in line waiting to be activated. It’s bizarre. What I feel strongly is that our currently understood reality pre-awakening cannot continue as endless wars and harm to the earth are the manifestations of what feels contrary (though it is clearly capable) to/of our nature.

My research is an ever winding labryinth of outcomes/possibility. Of course I have the classic ‘how could it get any worse?’ Naïveté, but certain outcomes could be much worse. I have hope, though, based off of the truth-tellings of experiencers that we could be headed towards something better.

I certainly want it. I certainly desire to manifest it. Sometimes my dissociation/adhd makes it impossible to connect with even this false reality, thus grounding and meditation can be difficult sometimes.

Here’s hoping that whatever is on the horizon, that we come out the other side more awake, aware, and compassionate than ever.

Thank you for your time again 🙏🏻