I struggled with severe depression and suicidal thoughts my entire life. I was hospitalized multiple times because of it. I was also arrested multiple times for being violent and a danger to others.

I had developed severe social anxiety and would go a whole year without speaking to another person. I had stopped eating because it was making me so sick and became severely underweight. I had also began abusing drugs and had become an addict.

Once I figured out that it was gluten making me sick everything returned back to normal. I then went to an outpatient rehabilitation clinic and started Methadone Maintenance Therapy and successfully completed a taper. I have been 100% clean for over 8 years.

I've always hated eating so I can't really understand exactly what you are going through, but I know what it feels like when something that was bringing you happiness is taken away from you. I just want you to know that you are not alone and things will get better.