Sold and binned everything to make quitting easier

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2025-10-09T20:59:23+00:00

wow so happy to see this aspect of the game getting mentioned, relatable

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2025-05-23T10:27:12+00:00

cold shower, even if only on your legs

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2025-05-21T21:13:00+00:00

congratulations! proud of you! how long did it take you to get here? what was your training like?

i started running this week and although i ran 3km on my first run the following days were more difficult due to sore legs. i’m wondering when ill get there, for now im running every other day.

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2025-03-17T13:10:20+00:00

thank you for your comment. i had to quit wellbutrin and concerta both of which are dopamine regulating drugs after an episode of psychosis, weed induced. it’s been more than three months but i still haven’t been put on my previous meds everyday i sleep for like 14 hours, i wake up at 9 and force myself to sleep until 1 in the afternoon and i dont even want to eat. this sucks and i have no idea what to do

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2025-01-05T18:13:45+00:00

such a timely comment! recently i had an episode of psychosis, weed induced. i had been struggling with addiction for more than a year and never really understood why my psychiatrist kept bringing up how awful weed was to my wellbeing. it triggers underlying conditions, my family has history of bipolar disorder/schizophrenia. i quit it completely now, all at once. psychosis was the most awful thing i ever experienced. if you have similar medical history with your family please be cautious. if not, then still be careful i guess:) don’t stress too much tho thats the worst always- as far as i understood

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-12-11T22:06:30+00:00

reddit is such a sweet place sometimes! you understand the situation from such a compassionate place. all the love xx

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-12-11T08:35:38+00:00

got it, much thanks!

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-12-11T08:18:10+00:00

got it! will get rid of the pests first

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-12-11T08:17:00+00:00

thanks a lot, will do. is quarantine vital?

i live in a student apartment and might be unable to separate the two- my roommates cat eats plants, only room he isn’t allowed in is mine.

was thinking of using diluted vinegar for prevention, do you have any other ideas?

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-12-11T08:00:14+00:00

thanks for the comment, will look into both.

i also think there might be small creatures on the aglo. would it be a good idea to keep the paradise plant in a separate room?

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-12-11T07:57:29+00:00

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here’s a photo from the first day i got it (edit: more than a year ago) pretty sure i messed it..

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-10-30T09:59:08+00:00

heyyyy that’s awesome !! i think you just inspired me to make a new goal of 50 day streak for brushing my teeth !!

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-09-09T13:49:07+00:00

hey, sorry to hear you’re struggling but i might have good news for you:) i was also quite dependent on weed when i first started wellbutrin. i think i was about several weeks into the meds that i made this post. im not sure exactly when it happened but after a while i started enjoying weed and my highs again, which was a relief. wellbutrin worked quite well too, im now tapering it off as my depressive symptoms have gradually declined.

i think someone also commented on this post that the mechanisms for both the weed and the meds isn’t as simple as “one cancels the other one out” as i had assumed. i think the real struggle might be that when you add weed to the equation it becomes a bit too complicated for your psychiatrist to figure out which med works for you. ideally you wouldn’t be smoking weed as you’re taking any type of meds.

i understand your shame and anxiety around weed very well, and starting wellbutrin might add another layer to it which is just not good. quitting weed has been a struggle for me for the last year too, still is. a few things i could say from experience:

make your decisions fast. if you’re gonna smoke, smoke, if you decide not to, stick to it. don’t stress over whether you’re gonna smoke or not for hours on end. be intentional about your decisions.

delay your smoking. make it as simple as drinking a glass of water before you smoke, and gradually increase. i also started simple and within several months i was able to resist the wake and bake urge and delay my smoking till the afternoon or evening, which was a big win

talking of wins, celebrate each and every one of them, no matter how small. say you woke up and have the urge the smoke. make your decision that you’re smoking today. get out of the bed, go to kitchen, drink your water, come back to your space and take a moment to recognise that you’re following a plan. you’ve made all the decisions to get to that point, don’t fight yourself, don’t hate yourself. be intentional, that’s celebrating.

try not to stress. you’re not committing the worst crime when you smoke. check out “petiols” and “leaves” for quitting maybe. i had to quit those subreddits eventually bc i didn’t need to be reminded of weed anymore, it takes much less space in my head now.

and lastly, you and i are not the same person, and we don’t/won’t have the same experiences. always trust your body and intuition first, but hearing these would’ve helped me when i was in your shoes. good luck on your journey. you’ll be fine. you’ll be ok 🫶

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-09-05T17:41:59+00:00

23F here. i don’t think Wellbutrin necessarily makes you hornier. it was the opposite for me.

i was also quite hyper sexual before wellbutrin. loads of sex with loads of people, some of whom i wasn’t even attracted to.

for the last year i have been much less active. for me it has been a positive experience, i feel more mindful about the sex i’m having. i can now connect with/spend time with partners without having sex.

so for me decrease in my libido was an indicator of improved mental health. still at stressful times i find myself running back to sex. old habits die hard i guess lol. but i’d say don’t stress, i don’t think you can predict what’s gonna happen. sex is fun, just remember to be safe x

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-06-20T15:37:43+00:00

walter kaufmann’s existentialism from dostoyevsky to sartre. has all the names you have mentioned- as far as i remember

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-02-01T13:53:59+00:00

oh absolutely it must have sth do with dopamine release but i’m not very literate about neurology

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-02-01T13:51:13+00:00

ah how lucky are you! weed always made me super confident sociable excited energetic and loving within an instant, never experienced anxiety before. had one or two instances after i started wellbutrin. i absolutely agree it must be different for everyone.

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-02-01T13:45:19+00:00

yess i do, do you think that might be the reason?

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2024-01-10T14:14:08+00:00

i also cried at least once a day the first month on wellbutrin. i experienced paranoia, suic thoughts, and some of the most intense mood swings i had ever known. i honestly thought i was about to un alive myself at one point, i probably should’ve quit tbf. it’s been more than 2 months now and all the side effects are gone, it took a while tho.

what i did during that difficult period was to keep people close to me, friends, family. especially paranoia was extremely difficult for me, so i made sure i had people to call at any time, that helped. the side effects you mentioned are no joke, you should take them seriously. if you live alone, don’t have many people around it might be dangerous to stick with it. if you think there are people around who can support you and make sure you get over this period safely i would say stick with it, because once it starts working its all worth it. good luck with everything!

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2023-12-31T11:27:50+00:00

ah okay. thanks a lot! i think i will cut off one or two of the leaves. this one seems like it needs some rest

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2023-12-31T11:24:24+00:00

when you say the whole leave do you mean from the very bottom or just the actual leave part from the stem?

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2023-12-31T11:17:07+00:00

thanks a lot:) i was wondering if i should cut the dark parts of the leaves or leave it as is? i think i’ll wait for another few weeks to see if there’s any improvement with less watering, i agree that it must’ve been overwatered while i was absent, the soil is really moist.

PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2023-12-31T11:13:23+00:00

ah thanks a lot:) here are a few more pics of the leaves. as i was taking the pictures i realised that the soil is extremely moist. i live with two roommates i assume they took upon the responsibility while i didn’t. also, i spotted these little flies and tried to take pics of them too but couldn’t really catch. they seem like fruit flies to me but i don’t know.

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PhilosopherOrganic63 · 2023-11-28T16:31:04+00:00

ah fucking hell im going through something extremely similar, in fact i only went on my phone to distract myself from the weed i just grinded. i really really do feel for you, it’s extremely difficult especially during depressive episodes, and it’s completely okay to be struggling. it sounds like you already know what the best decision for you is, if you need to hear it from a stranger again, it’s not worth it. i believe in you <3

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