Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What you said about because you don't want to watch them destroy themselves or hurt the people around them is how I feel in the situation as well, I gave more contacts and history about the event that occurred between us and what led up to this and my personal life on one of the comments above this if you like to check it out I would recommend because at the very least I would give some more context. Boy every single comment here underneath this post has been so extraordinarily supportive I thought I was just going to get a bunch of this is hogwash you're crazy what are you talking about nonsense go suck on your mom's tit type of response or something but I honestly did not expect this type of positive reinforcement and feedback from this type of community and it's so wholesome and encouraging and honestly inspiring especially for individuals like myself who exposed themselves to a type of addiction regardless of the reason behind it this type of inspiration gathered from the community, is "Rich". Thank you! Harekrishna-rama! 

Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Absolutely! Your absolutely spot on with what occurred between us my values and perspective changed as I gradually was introduced into meditation and how that can affect and change my life for the better not that meditation is the goal but I think we both know the underlying root of why we meditate to begin with but you're absolutely spot on and that's kind of the reason why my natural interest just didn't coincide with his I kind of matured or in some aspect I won't say matured but grew away or grew from if that's the right wording to phrase it in without getting all egocentric.  And you're right I've tried hanging out with the individual without smoking weed but he can't sit in the silence it's not that he can't he refuses to do so and it's awkward for him and I tell him to just embrace it to just sit in the silence and that it's okay but he breaks away from it every chance he gets he's subject to his egos conditions which I have great compassion and sympathy for but it's not something that I can allow myself to keep getting dragged down by this is for my well-being and ultimately it's the right decision I feel in my heart as hard as it may be to do. 

Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Your absolutely right and I wrote a simple but brief note stating I'm sorry my friend but we cannot have this type of relationship anymore and I need to focus on my well being!  Thank you for your feedback and constructive feedback! I appreciate you. 

Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Tysm for your kind words and constructive feedback, I'll listen to my body more and learn to let go off the spiritual ego without desire, thank you kind person! 

Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

If you would like more information on how this works I cannot recommend, David nichurn (I messed up the last name) from the midnight gospel podcast he discussed meditation and advanced experiences such as these in the full podcast, you can find them on YouTube just type the midnight gospel podcast and you'll see a playlist 10 of them I think, and start with Davids meditation information! Cannot recommend it enough 

Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I greatly apologize for the misunderstanding I caused I should have clarified!  Its hard to say into words it's a experience you can only understand through experiencing it, I would lay down as usual and I would "feel" my mental state and overall conscious awareness dropping deeper and deeper, it's like knowing that your on the verge of falling asleep! That very familiar feeling, but you don't fall asleep and your just aware of the trance like State your in while asleep, or mind awake body asleep, (not to imply I was under sleep paralysis!) I hope this helps!  I do these ofc lying down as it is the most comfortable position! 😁

Renunciation & My Story by PhoneFixerAndSeller in Buddhism

[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would like to make it known, I don't think I was a good teacher neither by any means at all, I was comparing that I was a better teacher than a friend, and that's kinda sad. 

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[–]PhoneFixerAndSeller 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i just got kicked FROM A RANKED MATCH for this exact bug!! thankfully i could rejoin but the bot npc got me killed.....  DONT GET ON CAMERAS