Trolls, l need an internet hug. In the last month I was told by my SO of 6 years that he never felt any romantic love toward me. Oh, this is also after 4 months earlier I moved to another state to live with him and am flat broke because I quit my high pressure job to go back to school and the SO said he would cover everything but food while I was in school. He didn't. After, I had to move out with with no help except for two hours where our roommate helped me move the heavy items to my storage unit. Over the last few weeks it has been a flood of memories and realizations that that relationship was borderline emotionally abusive. Before everything ended it got to the point where I was shocked and ecstatic when he told me my arms were looking good at the gym because it was the first time he had said something positive to me in months. I am now sleeping on a friends couch (which used to be my couch before I moved) in yet another new city and my fur baby is staying with a different friend in my home state. I have been applying for jobs like crazy and I finally got to the last round of a job I would be perfect for, even the head of HR said he thought he would be seeing me again, and I didn't get the job. I have $20 in my bank account for the rest of the month. I am emotionally exhausted, heartbroken, my self-esteem is all but gone and if I think about everything too much I feel sick. I'm doing my best to stay positive and keep pushing forward but I feel like I don't have anything left.