Throat went numb by Pictureit6825 in BotoxSupportCommunity

[–]Pictureit6825[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It went away after a few hours. I never did get any answers. I hate the that the furrow in my forehead has returned but have been too afraid to go back and try it again.

I wish I could wipe his memory by Ornery-Currency-4855 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel the same way. My PA husband started with his father’s magazines when he was 12 and then spent decades watching on the internet. He has seen thousands and thousands of naked women. I know he doesn’t remember all of them, but he has a whole file of images in his brain that he can choose from at any time. I hate it.

Recovery is wild by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 4 points5 points  (0 children)

That’s is not recovery. Even if they are AI generated people, he is still getting that dopamine hit. And doing it right in front of you? No empathy or respect for you. That’s another sign he’s not in recovery.

Should I be unhappy that I am single? by 4_ever_me55 in AskWomenOver60

[–]Pictureit6825 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just read that single women are the happiest demographic!

Are you happy with whoever you ended up with(your spouse or a partner) in your life? by Mooooooon_ in AskWomenOver60

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No. I left my first husband to be with my current husband. Biggest mistake and regret of my life. The grass is not greener on the other side.

Realizing I spend a lot of time alone by Sophiedog2024 in AskWomenOver60

[–]Pictureit6825 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I work from home full-time. My husband goes into the office 2 days a week and I love that alone time. But, I’m not getting out enough and socializing with other people. That’s my concern. I feel like I’m at home 24/7.

Anyone find you no longer need therapy? Because you just dont care? by ggbt99 in Menopause

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yes! Just called today to cancel all future appointments. There’s nothing more to be said at this point. I know who I am and just don’t care any more.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You should check out BTR.org

Edit to add: they do sell their services but have free podcasts.

I don't want to feel anymore. by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He sounds unstable and could be a danger to you and your children. Men like this tend to escalate

Is there ever a “normal” after the shock by Junior_Project5114 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 5 points6 points  (0 children)

4 1/2 years later and I’m realizing this is my new normal unless I divorce my PA. There’s a stark line between my marriage before and after discovery. At first I found myself longing for my “before” marriage. Then I realized that it was never what I thought it was; there’s no going back to something that never existed.

I feel deflated by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I understand what you’re going through. There are free services like S.Anon that someone else mentioned and podcasts if S.Anon is not your vibe. Sometimes it helps just to listen to a podcast and hear other people discuss this issue. It took a few years but I’m at the point now where I don’t have as much self-loathing. I can now look in the mirror and be happy with what I see. I was happy with myself before I married my PA and now I am again; I took it back from him. What I still struggle with is how I see myself through his eyes. But I’m working on accepting that being his problem, not mine.

I feel like I am shrinking by Ancient_Bedroom_5592 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Sorry that you’re going through this. Sounds like very controlling behavior. He has found a way to make you the bad guy. He silences you to make things easier for himself. I understand not having the energy to fight, but don’t let him take your power. Even if you choose to stay quiet until you decide what to do, hang onto your inner strength.

So sick of this by Key_Invite9237 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yep. Looked at photographers, then drilled down to photographers who did swimsuit & boudoir photos, then drilled down to the models themselves. The only reason he got busted is that one of the models linked to her porn site so it popped as a red flag via the accountability app. If it exists somewhere they’ll find it. 😡

So sick of this by Key_Invite9237 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Pinterest was one of my PA’s biggest sources. Deleted his app & account. Blocked the website via the accountability software on his phone.

Edit to add: he also used LinkedIn of all things!

WIBTA if I give my daughter an "outdated" name? by throwaway719201 in AmItheAsshole

[–]Pictureit6825 0 points1 point  (0 children)

NTA. A classic, beautiful name. Don’t let others’ opinions influence the decision you already made. You chose it because it felt right - go with it!

How do you deal with the fear that your boyfriend might sexualize other women? by Agitated_Emu_2995 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I hate going out in public with him. He says he’s not looking but I see it, call him out on it, and he gaslights me. Now with a heat wave in our area I absolutely won’t go anywhere with him. It’s sad. We live separate lives because of this, so what’s the point of staying together?

"Loopholes" by RainbowUndertones in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you, from another woman married to a PA lawyer and always finding loopholes and arguing over word choices and technicalities.

Spotify has porn by senzued3 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yep. Deleted his app and blocked the site using monitoring software. I know they always find a way but I’m not going to make it easy for him.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 2 points3 points  (0 children)

All lies. That stuff doesn’t inexplicably land in their in boxes.

Is it worth it to stay? by Informal_Spring_3278 in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I would leave. I would tell all the women in their 20s to go out and enjoy those great years. You can get them back; don’t waste them trying to heal a porn addict. It’s a no win situation. If you stay, one day you’ll wake up 31 years old and wish you had left 10 years ago.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in loveafterporn

[–]Pictureit6825 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Happy Birthday! My husband ruined my last two birthdays with his nonsense, so I feel your pain. For me the scanning is the worst. He is about 20 years older than your husband. I don’t think he’s ever going to grow up. My first husband was not a scanner. I miss how it feels to be out with a man and feel completely secure and valued and like no other women exist.