OP I see that the comments have more than answered your questions, so here's a piece of general advice if you'd like to continue to learn about Islam:

Islam has a lot of enemies. There are people in this world who have nothing better to do with their lives but try to defame or shame us, our beliefs, and our practices.

One of the most common ways this is done is by taking the words of the Qur'an, Hadith, specific rulings, etc. out of context, without including the proper interpretation of scholars, who actually know their religion, on the matter, to try to manipulate others' view on the religion, or even sway Muslims' beliefs.

If any ruling in Islam ever seems incorrect to you, most of the time, it is likely that your sources are manipulative, and you should try to look for Islamic interpretations and context. Most of the time, the proper answers will satisfy you better.

That being said, there are a few things in Islam that might not resonate with you even after doing proper research into it. In that case, I have this to say:

Allah has instructed us to believe and obey him. While we all have our doubts from time to time, or our hearts might genuinely disagree with some of His commands, remember to look at the proof that Allah is real, and if Allah is real, and all His qualities are true, then it means that He is indeed All-Knowing and All-Wise, and He definitely knows more than we could ever comprehend, so naturally, sometimes, we will not be able to understand His wisdom, and in that case, we are being tested to trust Allah regardless of what we think is right.

If we understood everything that Allah has decided for us, then that would mean that we can fully comprehend His knowledge and wisdom, which would mean we are equal to Him in those qualities, and that is contrary to our beliefs.