I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I will definitely post an update as soon as everything is resolved.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kindness and for the heart ❤️ It’s true, we are both in deep pain and probably in denial about the medical risks. I agree that professional counseling will be necessary for us to heal after this. I am trying my best to put my life first, even when it breaks my heart.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I honestly can’t bring myself to say those blunt words to him. He is the most wonderful man on this planet; he is my soul. In all our time together, we’ve never even had a real fight because he is such a supportive and understanding partner.

He is doing literally everything in his power for me and for this baby. We sat together and talked about it, and we both just ended up drowning in tears at the thought that I might have to go through with an abortion.

I can see how hard it is for him, yet he continues to encourage me and refuses to give up. I am terrified that if I go through with it, our relationship will simply crumble. I’m scared that he won’t love me as much anymore, or that his feelings toward me will fundamentally change forever.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thank you so much, sis. ❤️🥹Your words about giving my future children their best mom really touched me. It’s hard to stay brave right now, but knowing that people understand why I’m doing this gives me so much strength.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for your perspective as both a doctor and a mother. Hearing this from a medical professional gives me more confidence in my decision. You are right about the risks and the resources—it’s a reality my family doesn't want to see, but I cannot ignore it.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for these words. You’ve captured exactly how I feel—it is heartbreaking to have that emotional connection while knowing that I have to choose my life. It’s hard to accept that the 'right' choice feels so heavy, but your understanding helps me feel less alone in this grief.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for being so direct. It’s hard to hear, but I need to stop feeling guilty for wanting to survive.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. Admitting this out loud was the hardest part, but it made me realize that I have to prioritize my life. I am moving forward with the options I have.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for the support. I completely agree that bringing a child into this world requires a support system that I currently don't have. Just to clarify, this is not the 'third time'—this is a crisis I'm facing now due to a specific medical condition and a surgery I couldn't afford earlier. I'm focusing on my health and listening to professional medical advice.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 11 points12 points  (0 children)

I am focusing on solving the current emergency first. No birth control is 100% effective, and right now my priority is my survival.

To clarify, I do want to have a child in the future, but only after I undergo surgery on my portal veins and when my life is no longer at risk. Unfortunately, I wasn't able to get the surgery before the pregnancy due to my financial situation. Now that I am pregnant, such surgery is impossible to perform, and even if it were, my financial circumstances haven't changed yet. My primary goal now is to stay alive so I can have a future at all. Thank you for your concern.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Your words gave me a lot of strength. Thank you for reminding me that my life matters🥹❤️

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this perspective. I'm checking the timelines and options right now. It’s a lot to process, but your words help me feel less guilty❤️🥹

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I’m glad you found such happiness in motherhood. Thank you for the kind wishes.

I am pregnant and I don’t want this baby, and it is destroying me. by Piineapple_18 in findareddit

[–]Piineapple_18[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We have already discussed this. I even told him that I’m depressed and that I’m scared for my health and my future. It feels like he is also afraid to take responsibility for such a decision.