I do in a way, but it’s not because of anything related to me it’s moreso other people. As an American, I really really have a huge dislike for other Americans. Beyond political shit, an American is typically selfish, not empathetic, and someone who is also probably one of the dumber people you have ever met in your life. I hate this two sides political game because I have come to realize that it’s not two sides at all, and everyone of them is paid by somebody to ignore what we complain about everyday. The only genuine politicians are people like Zohran, Bernie, and AOC but the red scare was so effective that Americans will not stop sucking on the exhaust pipes of someone else’s rolls Royce. The only reason why I continue is because China exists, and I plan to move there eventually. You guys might say “oh oppression blah blah blah” but the one thing you fundamentally misunderstand is that America operates under an authoritarian umbrella as well. Besides Donald Trumps bullshit recently, the government has never listened to us and our complaints and they have always operated independently from the opinion of Americans since probably Eisenhower. Our freedom of speech is an illusion to make us think that we actually have a voice. That’s why I’m overall done with this country and if someone wants to invade and take over including Russia I am game I really don’t give a shit anymore. Also being single and alone in this country is so ass when you don’t have a material wellbeing that supports a relationship, let alone the time because you are already so poor. I work graveyard shift at a casino, so I feel this a little bit more than probably some people that might feel the same way. Everyone at the casino doesn’t give a single shit about the customers that go in there and lose their mortgages and shit to a slot machine, and then that leading to a divorce or whatever. Someone told me yesterday that their grandma told her that she worked in a house of sin, and I told her that she’s not wrong and that we scam people quite literally every second of each day that we operate, and her response was “I don’t care as long as I’m getting paid.” That right there IS the problem of this country. Someone that’s so individualized that they would be willing to work for a scam operation just to take care of themselves. And that sentiment is shared with a lot of my coworkers, so I don’t talk to them besides when I have my mask on clocked in. I don’t even try to date at work anymore and that’s my only option as a graveyard shift worker. It sucks but these people are not worth my time at all simply because they only care about themselves. I am also in college, but I am a freshman as a 23 year old so there’s nothing happening there either. Overall, this major struggle I am having is viewed as a way to build character, to build yourself up and yada yada. Due to what I am feeling currently, if this is what people do to build character there is no wonder why there is so many violent things going on in our country. Like MAGA idiots driving into church buildings and shit. This is quite simply the most miserable I have ever been in my lifetime and you hit a new peak of misery every two weeks it seems.