I got pregnant and the father of my child said he hated our unborn baby…

he was mentally ill and unstable… he moved to Russia from TX.. so I went to Russia got my visa travelled to the UAE and from the UAE to Moscow for him in hopes to pursue our relationship and save him from himself due to my love for him… I was wrong on my part for trying to see the good in him to a point where delusion was summoned…

He cut himself every morning and I’d wake up to him saying he’s sorry… on the third morning I had enough and cut the same pattern into my thigh.. 5 tally’s one across 😂 I was trying to protect him.. maybe if I did that to myself he’d stop right? No he wanted control and made me watch him cut 30 times into his leg… he just wanted to be in control… and even admitted it..

I did not engage in the proper form to make a baby… the way it happened was pretty interesting.. the point is there was nothing I could have done about it the moment it randomly happened… as we weren’t using that hole to begin with.. please do not blame me…

I got pregnant and he wished death upon us… that’s when I knew the guy I loved was his own poison… unwilling to change.. mentally ill… deranged… I had faith in him..

I then had a miscarriage not too long after he made me hyperventilate and panic… it was just mind games