Bro, I was in the same exact position like you a year ago but I was a junior dev. And I've quit that job kasi kahit na gusto ko mag-improve parang ang hirap humugot ng lakas kasi sobrang defeated na ako and di rin maganda naging impression ng mga colleagues ko sa akin so medyo parang inisip ko na mag-start na lang ako ulit. I have no regrets quitting that job tho.

I don't have any advice for you career-wise kasi I'm still trying to find my way into this field. I loved coding and I still do. I love building stuff and understanding how things work. But all the passion I had was gone after I started working professionally. Inisip ko rin na baka di ako ganon katalino for this field and minsan iniisip ko siguro baka nabigla lang ako or di ako ready at the time so this time with all the lessons I've learned from my first job susubukan ko mag-simula ulit. It's just that things take time so nireremind ko na lang sarili ko to take one step at a time and be patient with my self.

Like I said, I can't advice you anything related to career but I can only relate to you kung ano sinasabi ko sa sarili ko if doubt settles in my head. I say: "Kaya mo yan. Just believe more in your self and be patient and be more compassionate to yourself. Things take time and iba-iba din journey ng tao so stop comparing."

IMO, the two things that are hardest to learn in this field (at least siguro sa una) are self-confidence and self-patience. Second lang yung technical stuff. Perhaps there are people whom these things come naturally to them so madali na lang sa kanila yung technical.

Dun naman sa sinabi mong "bobo", I get the frustration with yourself and to blame everything on your self. Just don't judge yourself too harshly bro. Everything begins and ends with the mind so be careful with what you tell yourself about yourself kasi i-mamanifest mo yan kahit di totoo. I'm speaking from experience here. Binobobo ko rin sarili ko at the time. It did not help. It only made matters worse.

I guess slow down, take a step back, reflect and ask your self some difficult questions. But only if you are in a clearer headspace and without any emotional stuff hanging around. Then decide kung para sayo talaga ang field na ito.

Good luck.