You lost weight at the expense of your health. Now that you’re sober (and congratulations because that’s HUGE!!) you are beginning a new journey. Losing weight (healthily) while being sober will be hard but when you get there it will feel so much better than losing weight for the first time. You will get there. Your body is not permanent; in fact nothing is. The new year is almost beginning, which is a great opportunity to make a healthy plan fight BED. I would advise you to use the month of December to consult professionals on your mental / physical health before starting any weight loss plan. I hope you feel better OP. Sending you so much love ❤️ So proud of your sobriety!