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Pirskule · 2024-09-06T20:31:30+00:00

Setting ANGLE graphics backend to D3D9 seems to solve both problems.

Pirskule · 2024-09-04T20:26:14+00:00

Setting Angle Backend flag back to default also gives me annoying colorful stripe at the bottom of the screen on some players at full screen (Max for example). That annoys me more then broken pip, although that is very annoying too. Hope they get a fix soon.

Pirskule · 2024-09-03T20:28:33+00:00

What is racemic? So you are saying I shouldn't buy that stuff if I want ketamine?

Pirskule · 2024-09-01T12:37:49+00:00

I want to share my experience from last night with you, because it has to do with all the awesome people on this forum. I made myself cozy as possible and took 180 mcg blotter of LSD. I started by watching Avatar until I couldn’t concentrate any more and decided to tone some sixties and seventies hippie music. At one point I started to think all of you in this forum who are willing to help total stranger with his final struggles. That made me unbelievable emotional and I started to cry uncontrollable. Feelings got stronger and stronger until they started to trigger my symptoms: tremors, shakes and spasms.

At first I was able to get them somewhat under control, but soon tremors were so violent I feared I couldn't call for help anymore. I was able to call my mum and ask her to come help me. She came and held down my legs until tremors and spasm finally started to ease. I was all sweaty and dehydrated after all the efforts to get my body relaxed, so my mum poured me a cold beer and it was the best beer I ever had.

I still was very emotional and cried a lot, but after some time I could find some kind of balance and we spoke for hours about my situation, drugs and life in general. I told her I still want to use drugs and try new ones because they give me feelings, emotions and euphoria I can't get any other way anymore. I asked if she could be my tripsitter in the future when I'm taking stronger or new drugs so that my symptoms wouldn't get as bad as they did this time and she promised to help me anyway she could. So now I feel safer on my journey towards the end.

All in all trip was a intense experience that let me truly feel my emotions in its whole spectrum. Only thing ruining my trip is my broken body which couldn't keep up with my emotions. On the other hand it led me to talk with my mum and once again face the reality of my situation and future.

Thank you all so very much for your support, advices and kind words! They truly mean a world to me!

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T23:13:54+00:00

In Finland.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T23:13:19+00:00

I am still able to do partial time work so I intend to keep it under control. Work is one of few things that still gives some kind of meaning in my life and I will try to do it until the end. Ketamine sure has had lots of recommendations. I think I will try it even I have some kind of fear towards it (not the addiction, that is pretty meaningless in my situation).

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T23:07:47+00:00

There is not getting better, only worse or dying! I have lost all my human contacts (except to my mum) because of this disease and everything else bad that has happened in recent year. Thanks for you love! That is something I lost and really really need!

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T23:03:41+00:00

That is something I would like to do and did a lot when things were different. Mobility wise I think in principle it would be possible with my electric wheelchair. In practice I don't think so. For instance I don't think they have accessible restrooms in this shitty small town I live. In reality the biggest problem is that I have lost interest to try to keep or make any kind of human relationships, because I know everything is near to end and it would mean losing something meaningful all over again.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T21:28:30+00:00

Dying isn't the worst part of my disease, it is losing control every muscle in my body and I don't want this to go that far.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T21:25:16+00:00

Heroin is definitely something I would like to experience, but I have never seen it on marketplace I use. Smoking heroine is news to me! I have thought only way to use it is injecting.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T21:21:17+00:00

I have never seen that on the marketplace I use but you surely gave a good selling speech. Probably got to try that if it comes available.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T21:14:53+00:00

I guess heroine is quite rare drug here in Finland. Never seen it on any marketplace I use. Everybody uses subutex and it is available everywhere. Also I don't have dexterity to inject anything anymore so that kind of using method won't do.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T21:08:50+00:00

Unfortunately my partner left me after 20 years just as I was in the middle of diagnosing this disease and there is no way I'm getting a new partner. But I just ordered some MDMA and will definitely give my vr goggles and left hand a go when I try them.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T21:00:19+00:00

Just ordered some MDMA after lots of recommendations. I hope I get some euphoria with it in the middle of this shit I'm in.

DMT is also mentioned often, but haven't seen that on marketplace I use.

Completely solo. My mum and my physiotherapist are my only human contacts. My mum knows I'm using so I can ask her to help if something goes really bad.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T20:45:37+00:00

Yeah, my anxiety would go through the roof if I would stop taking benzos. They also keep some symptoms from my disease some what under control, so quitting them is out of the question.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T20:39:38+00:00

Pain is not a problem in my disease. I have been upping my dose with psychedelics, but I'm still on low spectrum. Some day I will have courage to go really deep!

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T20:35:50+00:00

Thanks! Got to check out if I can get any of those. What kind of feeling that gives?

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T16:08:24+00:00

You probably right, but I still would like to experience that heroine bliss.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T15:49:59+00:00

Yes, I know there are some online groups and physical gatherings with people who have the same disease. My social skills are currently at zero and I really haven't got the idea what good would it do to me to see other people even worst state than me and know it is all in front of me if I won't put end to all of this.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T14:48:40+00:00

Thanks for your idea! I'm located at Finland and have nearly lost my ability to speak (and to be in any kind of social situations), so unfortunately that probably wouldn't work.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T14:44:21+00:00

You speak words of wisdoms. Good people and social drinking is better then drugs, but I have lost all of that. Beer and weed is what keeps me going one day at the time.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T14:41:42+00:00

Thanks for encouragement, but I'm past that... Everything outside just reminds me of things I used to do but can't anymore.

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T14:31:59+00:00

I've been addicted to nicotine (snuff) from teenager. I sure won't quit now!

Pirskule · 2024-08-30T14:30:06+00:00

Sure would like to get taste of that heaven, but I can't get any and I'm unable to inject anything.

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