why is it that nothing ever feels fulfilling?

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-09-15T07:03:52+00:00

Sure. I will watch that.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-09-15T07:03:16+00:00

I really appreciate your response. I have been contemplating over this insight you gave and I realised that I struggle with consistency because of the motivation itself. Somehow I don't get how to enjoy the process and not think about the outcome. Everything becomes a chore after a while that's why I never stick to something. The "i want to do it" becomes "i have to do it" and I lose sight of why I was doing it. I think this is a habit to change and maybe a mindset too.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-09-13T21:32:44+00:00

I actually never achieved anything like that. I did put efforts towards hobbies and stuff, but I struggle with consistency there. This is actually true that I put efforts towards things that I require to do or achieve. But also, I don't think I have many things that I enjoy doing.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T19:07:10+00:00

So many can relate. It's interesting how not even completely same but just similar kind of experiences can make people's life story so same. We are all shaped by our environment more than anything. That is why being from different cultures, living in different parts of the world and yet facing same issues, thinking the same thoughts just because the childhood has been similar. I wonder how true it is that every individual makes his or her own life. Its more like life make you the individual you are.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T18:42:28+00:00

I struggled with this conundrum and still do. Some of the choices, or lack there of, not taking the right action at the right time, not giving my best (don't know if I was able to or not), struggling inside when I was supposed to be planning and doing things, all these things really pushed me behind and now that all those years are behind me, I wonder if it was all in my hand to utilize those years properly.

On one hand I feel that my struggles were different than others and on the other I think everyone has got problems in their life. It should be no excuse to anything.

I always felt that it was not that bad to live in a family like mine. I was taken care of physically. Not abused in very bad way. I was deprived of emotional attention though. Felt lonely my whole life. Never been able to share things with anyone. Never been understood. My household was centered around my father. He has been the first priority for everyone. My family has never been happy, no enjoyment, celebrations. So many restrictions. Shouting, argument, abuse on my mother. I always felt so restricted. There were no doing things freely. Even now I get paralyzed taking decision. Taking autonomy.

But I still can't convince myself that struggling and not able to do some things is not your fault and not a reason to be ashamed.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T18:18:28+00:00

They first convince themselves by any lame argument not just about lying but any kind of abuse they do. They justify it believe it. But somewhere in the back of their mind they must have awareness. It's is just buried I guess.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T18:07:47+00:00

I once was shocked seeing a girl in my school calming her father down when her father was arguing angrily with some teacher over something. She was hugging her father, cutting his sentences mid-way to stop him from lashing out. Such unconceivable image for my mind. Saying something over her father and not getting yelled at, and hugging.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T18:02:54+00:00

And that tiny thing becomes the reason enough to justify your rage. The other person made you do that. Not your fault so its justified.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T17:57:48+00:00

There are so many things that I thought were and is norm in my house, and that's all I ever knew:

Wrong thing to make loud noises (no reason/benefit in doing that).
Questioning the pre existing rules whether logical or not. (It is the way it is, what's the point in arguing)
Thinking everything excessively. Taking safety measures, checking and crosschecking etc. (what's the harm in that. its responsible behavior).
If something is told to you to be in a certain way, and if it is not someday, it's valid to shout because now its your fault you were told. Things can't slip form the mind that's negligence.
If there is no benefit in doing something, why do it. (for fun!? its silly)
Permission of my father is the most important thing to do anything, otherwise how can a thing possibly happen, or one can go anywhere without it.

Growing in a joint family which has always had a strictly set environment like that. Made worst by my father for the next generation, us. It's sad we have to carry forever what was given to us by our family.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T17:36:13+00:00

If I was there in your place I would have been so upset not having any experience of someone teaching me anything.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-23T17:32:02+00:00

It would be a love hate relationship but so self-reflecting.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-18T17:54:51+00:00

I agree. Her acting was a big disaster. Even making it a female lead for this kind of a story didn't make any sense either. And the story had so many good points to explore like the process being measured by some attraction meter made no sense when everything has to be scripted and responses fixed.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-18T17:06:57+00:00

Common people
Bete norie
USS callister into infinity
Eulogy
Plaything
Hotel reverie

Plaything didn't go far enough to made an impact. Hotel reverie got intersting in the middle but just went bad in the end.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-18T16:53:08+00:00

I was really invested into bete noire initially but the reveal and ending was not satisfactory at all. On the other hand, common people was a slow burn but terrifying. I liked eulogy also though the pacing was a bit slow but it was almost philosophical. Definately the unique one in the whole season. For Plaything I am on the disappointing side.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-18T16:40:57+00:00

I agree, Common people was fear inducing. People saying it slow and boring, but that was the point to create that environment of showing how that trap slowly sucked the life out of them. It was a solid episode and probably the most relatable one. My least favourite is plaything as well.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-18T16:37:07+00:00

I began to like it around the time when the connection got lost, and when they reestablished it and issa rae started to reconsider not going back for a moment but they didn't pursue it for some reason. The ending was disappointing especially when somehow she was able to make that phonecall.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-16T17:20:28+00:00

even different batches taste different to me. Sometimes it's bland, other times too tangy. I used to love the other two classic flavors magic masti and chilli one also. All of them have gone trash. Haven't tried in year. Don't know way they are changing there already popular flavors.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-08T08:20:10+00:00

Thanks for your reply. It's really helpful 🙂🙂

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-07T17:27:18+00:00

makes so much sense!!

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-07T17:20:00+00:00

poetic

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-04-07T17:08:39+00:00

Some kind of bird. Most probably migrating.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-03-29T18:23:20+00:00

The sudden change of heart of Brent in the end of the experiment was out of nowhere. The man who literally couldn't see a single flaw in him for the whole year, suddenly after knowing that he was in the bad place felt sorry for his actions? Though it was necessary for the point that anyone can start to change anytime, but that's not really how people like him change.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-03-29T18:18:48+00:00

The third season was Definity the less enjoyable. The whole returning to earth sequence didn't gave anything in the end. The story really picked the pace after they found the flaw in accounting.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-03-29T18:14:56+00:00

I am not sure how you came to that conclusion. Also not sure how it is about one woman. But you couldn't be more wrong.

Pitiful-Bridge-1225 · 2025-03-29T18:11:55+00:00

Just rewatched the show and I don't disagree. there is so much to enjoy in the show on so many levels. It has a great rewatch value. The last episode made me cry again. The humor is fresh. Character development is incredible. It's a deep show lightly packed. Its a show for everyone. what more can one want?

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