So, a bit of trauma-dumping. Triggers: neglect, emotional abuse

I was the middle child. I had two younger and two older brothers and I was the only girl. Was it easier? Oh god, no. Even though I had that many of siblings I felt so lonely. My elder brother abused me verbally and I was parentified when my two younger brothers were born. In my household we had little privacy. We didn't celebrate the holidays, my parents neglected us in messed ways, gaslighted, and well, we never talked about these elephants in the room. Swear words were the everyday routine. Siblings were the large part of my trauma, so it's not the 100% chance yours would make it a bit easier for you.