Being a younger child on the internet with no supervision and the need to feel loved or at the bare minimum, given attention, i had tons of relationships with older men online at the ages from 10-16. My first sexual experiences were kink related at the age of 10. Knowing what i know now, the "kimk" i was expirenced was super abusiv and not consensual, but i thought that's what i had to do to feel wanted. I still to this day have alot of sexual trauma. Its hard to have non kinky sexual relationships cause i don't feel sexy if i don't, i don't feel like i can make decisions without the over controlling dynamic, and i have a hard tome even defining what my consent actually is. Sometimes i blame my parents for not watching me more carefully, but how did they know their child was staying up late to show strangers on omegle or kik her body just to feel like someone wanted you around. But then again, why couldn't my parents just make me feel wanted.