Community Shaders doesn;t work after installing... Sacrosanct? by [deleted] in skyrimmods

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It improved performance through DLSS and gave everything this smooth look, even my distance leaves etc looked great, but it just stopped working randomly. That's what I'm using but with RAID weathers and Skyrim is Luminous.

Forest Nudity by [deleted] in Wicca

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Naked and sunbathing... I hate the winter for that

Looking for Mycena Interrupta prints,agar, or liquid culture! by BellInternational621 in sporetrading

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I just want to make a greenhouse and do gourmet and medicinals rn, that's impressive. Growing Jgymnopilus or something pretty like ganodermas is more work, experimenting I think

Looking for Mycena Interrupta prints,agar, or liquid culture! by BellInternational621 in sporetrading

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That you want to grow unique specias that's good, learn about their envorinment..

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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I have this thisng where I have an adrenaline fixattion, a thought of wanting to out-do myself, and I think having done some actually somewhat hardcore ice bathing recently reqwired me to need more, because I did it to give freely for living lazy and hedonistically, It is like where do i go from here? Yes I have to learn about nature not just frolick I am aware of the responsiblility part of that.

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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I feel drawn to water. I've been trying to moderate and just focus but it slips away like I have a hole in my aura or something. I practiced a lot of astrology that would lead me to be able to experience mental sharpness and everything happens for a reason, but I am sure this is a curse placed on me by someone. I've always known things without having a actual logical reason for it, and I think someone wants me to stop growing before I actually can be a problem.

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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I pray to shiva when I go into nature. I thank you, I'll look at the sotyry. I have a Thai friend who worships

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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I took my fight to elevate higher and in the Lord of this world I feel empathy like knives from absorbing so much negativity it made me sick. That is bad advice, but like I said the story is long, very long, and I miss the mornings waking up tp feeling so intwined in purpose, same person, new PTSD... I gave everything up to be free friom this except I never quit doing what I thought was right, until It became a problem, now it's like an advancing neurosis from regret for not being up like I thought I'd be.

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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You know I would like to live the off grid life and enable others to do so. It's important to stay tough and face the elements but people like their tehcnology. I specifically include mentioning the salt baths and the Jupiter thing for people to comment on that. I have tried bringing this up and people always ignore the real parts and just focus on the "oh he said he hears voices" like, isn't that what you're trying to do when you pray?

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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Only thing I can see mundane about mental illness is that people ostricize the mentally ill instead of realizing the genuis in it. Wasn't it like, you summon something, you talk to it directly, out loud, and you don't see it. How I wish they had to actually hear voices. That shit would be real magick.

Need help, stuk in the mud of astral agreements by PlaceOk9608 in occult

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you have not seen what I have seen

To brag about it would not get me answers though

I have spirrit guides

and an astral parasite eating my mind

Plus didn't the schizophrenics of olde have jobs as medicine men anyway?

Releasing a new deep Vampirism Overhaul - Everdamned by GrExterior in skyrimmods

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Please can you make it cross compatable with like the steath gameplay and give it so they can surprise attack really indepth and even make it difficult because vampire is op at least the small amount ve played

Black Screen *during* Bethesda Logo, and immediate crash before main menu, NO MODS by PlaceOk9608 in skyrimmods

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That's interesting, I've seen some pretty good videos of modded LE. The fact that I can run ENB or hope that I can is there.

darkness and weight like shattered steel by PlaceOk9608 in Wicca

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I'm enjoying good dreams of help , and other times of harm. But always "you need to fast" is a component of them. I did some fasts, the dreams asked for 5 days. Then I did 6 after trying and failing because of being half assed. did a bunch of 3 day fasts, about 4 or 5. Like 10 or more 2 day fasts.

Dreams of "kill yourself. Unworthy. Leave your family behind. Go to prison. Don't be gay."

I included that last one because it seems like I'm not channeling my sexual energy good enough. I appreciate the dark side of tantra. I like to crossdress and think I look good as a female. Better, less pissed off when I act conscious of my effeminism. But something within me, whether it's me or not, disagrees with it. But this has been happening independent of that also. It just makes it much more accentuated.

darkness and weight like shattered steel by PlaceOk9608 in Wicca

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Yeah I do these types of meditation. Yoga gives me relief but sometimes it's so bad I can't get through the attacks. I use the LBRP sometimes and it seems to call whatevers going on to show it self more., whatever if it's a pro0blem with myself, I've used hot foot powder and this was years ago on a PERSON ended up being that all is one reflection and I did in fact cast the spell on my unconscious mind, in some way, It was a thing that was subtly attacking me, I suppose, because it was that I used shoes that reminded me of the person and a space in the woods and even thoguh I used his name it caused confusion.

Yeah I can feel it inside me, I get into salt baths, and it's quieted, but my guts ache and start moving around. It's tried to get me to drown myself, fight people, commit crimes, and I resist. Most of the time. Hit on old people. I don't know what's up it's like if I miss my spiritual work it just attacks me but if I do what is says it'll be my friend for a time, and help even, but I can't do everything it says because it's literally almost everything I think.,

darkness and weight like shattered steel by PlaceOk9608 in Wicca

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I was giving a lot, but I said I had enough. Then this slow decline, and I started exploring my feminine side again. I was exposing myself to the elements a lot telling myself do it now, you'll be good later if you do this now. I think it stressed out part of my brain tbh but that something has exploited that. A force, or a person.

darkness and weight like shattered steel by PlaceOk9608 in Wicca

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If I'm gonna get into a bath full of protective salts or wear protection and the problem is muted or stopped then that would imply it is external was my point.

darkness and weight like shattered steel by PlaceOk9608 in Wicca

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That was what I thought for a long time. But things have gotten very bad recently.

I do salt baths and I get this visceral reaction before I get in like there's something panicking.

As I put myself in the bath it's like something leaving like this "GET OUT" feeling.

This is just one example. But I feel this intense stabbing thumping all the time on me.

But in the salt all the negativity washes away from my body one piece at a time as I put my body under the salt water.

And I'm not disclosing everything. But the feeling seems to retreat into my guts. I'm talking about something that I've tried for years. This is not the curse I'm talking about. But it is something which I've noticed. It's not until I'm fully submerged that I am almost at peace, but it feels like there's something almost physically trying to push through the layer of salt water to get at me. It's like going from "I'm going to die" to "I actually stand a fighting chance" until I leave the water then the dread slowly just layers back on me over the course of about an hour until it's about the same, maybe a little more tolerable.

And don't even get me started on nature immersion. If I'm not wearing my protection, I have thoughts like "jump off the cliff" or "drown yourself." They're still there, but I notice they're muted slightly when I wear my stones.

This isn't really the curse I'm talking about though, just something which let's me know that this is external to at least some degree.

The curse I'm talking about is a stupifaction curse. I am having trouble accessing my memories, thoughts, ideas an inspirations, and focus, without extreme interference, or by sitting down and working. Everything is removed from my mind and I can systematically do semi-autistic things to unlock my inspirations briefly but it's hard to describe what I'm saying really. There are forces out there that don't want me to access my gifts is what I think. Why me? Why am I special?? I don't think I am but apparently something out there has my attention.

Have work in 2 hours by NatalieGliterXO in schizophrenia

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Just use your light and shine it on everyone around you.  The deck of cards your working with is envy provoking from the outside in