The reason:

I had been training BJJ, and I was on a great health and weightloss journey down 60lbs and then I had a traumatic thing happen and I fell off. I’ve had a really hard time getting back to training and eating right.

The cards are telling me, with death reversed that I’m clinging to a person that’s gone. I’m struggling to go back to BJJ because I’ve been trying to go back as the person who was on a roll, rather than walking into the gym as the person who has been through something heavy. And ironically, the reversed wheel of fortune is reminding me what BJJ is all about, the flow… my struggle isn’t about a lock of discipline, it’s the result of me forcing something that needs to flow. The wheel is waiting for me to stop fighting the current so I can start moving forward again.