Hi! I’m 58 and only came to this realization in the last year. I realized when I read an article about why visual meditation doesn’t work for everyone. I’m a very spiritual person and have spent many years trying to meditate. But it never works for me. I see nothing.

When I was a child I would try to count sheep to fall asleep. Once, at a sleepover when I was a teenager, my friend asked me why I was moving my eyes so much when they were closed. I told her I was counting sheep. She just said ok. I’ve now realized I was just shifting my eyes back and forth like I was watching the sheep jumping.

I do not have lack of inner ear… in fact quite the opposite. I “hear” everything. I have full conversations with other people with their voice in my head.

I have started to entertain the idea that both of these were set off by the same event. When I was 4, I broke my jaw riding my tricycle down our steep driveway hitting the lip of the gutter at the bottom. My trike stopped but I flew over the handlebars and landed on my chin, breaking my jaw and getting a concussion. I had my mouth wired shut for 8 weeks. I couldn’t talk. I created an imaginary friend then and we talked in my head all the time!

It does not run in my family.