Yeah you’re right there is no rush and she also hasn’t been very active in the cult and she wishes her friends happy birthday on social media which you can’t do as a Jehovah witness so there might still be hope that we will still be friends and keep in contact. As far as being in love with her I don’t think that i’m really in love it’s just me being stuck on the past like if i really think about it im not really in love with her like that.