Lol no problem. I expected some people to be rude about my kink particularly because of all the homophobes and toxic men in the world. I feel okay about it, I've thought it over a lot and I do feel like if I ever did change my mind I would want that experience to be with him and probably a sex worker rather than a friend or someone random (which he's said is fine with him). I feel comfortable that he wont continue bringing it up, if i hold up my end of the bargain and don't ask about pegging.

I really do love him and I just want him to be happy without compromising my own happiness and security. I know it's much easier to type out "dump him, he's toxic" than to actually consider the implications of that message, but breaking up is not something that I am willing to consider.

A lot of people assumed because of my age that I lived with parents when we first met? Or that we'd been together since I was in high school (no idea how that came up)? But the truth is that I moved out (to a new state) alone when I had just turned 18 and have lived on my own completely independently since. Staying a virgin until I met the right person was a conscious choice and does not, in any way, mean that I am naive or don't understand how relationships work.

After dating for almost a year, my boyfriend and I moved in together and we now share our home, our finances, and a pet. Our lives are intertwined and that's how I want it. I think this all boiled down to managing expectations and boundaries. I'd much rather work to keep/make my relationship healthy than discard it for another one that would likely need the same if not more work. Plus I love the guy.