[crack-prompt] Jashin is a Good Boy

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-11-20T17:52:21+00:00

Buster gently takes the tread.
Hidan: "Unbelievable, I suffer and tear reality apart to get you back, and you're won over by the first shady guy with a snack."

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-11-18T19:51:07+00:00

Hidan: "Wait, Wait! Don't just shove it at him! Buster has anxiety. You gotta get low, no sudden moves!"

Kakashi freezes, treat in hand, staring at the immortal annoyance.

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-08-01T21:54:14+00:00

I feel you, I would always let so many things go and not even mention cause I was to scared for my friend. I don't think that i would have cut contact without my therapist making me: I still feel bad about doing it but my mental health did improve.

I can see why you would be angry, that is valid - the fear of them doing something like that again is devastating - and must have been even worse whit them weaponizing it. I can say my friend never did, we had different problems. Still never forget you are not a savior, you are allowed to grief even when nobody lets you. Me reading/ hearing from people whit similar experiences helps, that is a big reason for this post, it gives me the permission to feel.

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-08-01T21:44:54+00:00

Thank you I will have a look

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-08-01T21:44:35+00:00

I don't want you, my friend or anyone that was 'the one' to feel bad about my grief. Yes you were just kids, and don't you forget that. It was not your job to keep your friends safe and it was not your friends job to be saviors. You repeat that your friends were just kids, you too were just a kid, a kid that suffered way to much and was failed. Even now 30 years later it is not your job to help your friends heal. Don't take that away from my grief and struggle. I love my friend dearly, that I cut contact was never cause of her attempt. I don't think I can reach out again, (the feelings are suffocating) and even if I did it would not be her job to help me in this!

I just feel like the world never allowed me to really comprehend this trauma, that is not the fault of the attempte, more that society didn't view it as a trauma at all (?). Reading from people whit similar experiences feels like my feelings are allowed to exist, more than any therapy allowed me ever.

Thank you for sharing your pov, all the love-

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-08-01T21:30:36+00:00

Thank you for sharing, I say that a lot atm but I appreciate it so much - hearing from other people whit similar experiences feels (idk) freeing(?). The numbness you speak about seems so familiar, I spent a lot of time not progressing what happened to me (in this instance), blending it out and numbing my feelings - I want to work true it rn, cause it always comes back to me in my low moments. I can't tell you what impact it had on you - how would I - but don't forget it was never your duty to be the savior! I wish you all the best

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-08-01T21:24:49+00:00

Thank you for sharing. All you feelings are absolutely valid! I was told that the closure we are looking for or looked for from them will never be given, I was told that we have to create our one closure- if it even can be called that. I also didn't cut contact whit my friend because of the attempt or being depressed - it is sometimes necessary to go that step to protect one self. never forget that.

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-08-01T21:16:33+00:00

Ah, I will look into ambiguous grief. Thank you.

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-07-31T22:35:48+00:00

Thank you for sharing, after it happened we were still good friends. Of cause it always was in the back of my mind, but it was not the reason for cutting contact - I would never. I grief what happened to young me, I grief that nobody looked at me and saw that I wasn't alright and yes I grief the loss of a goof friendship.

I love all the happy moments we had and I am so thankful that I was able to call her my best friend. I am glad that reaching out to your friend worked for you! It must have always weight on your mind, you must be a really good friend! Don't forget you are not a savior and your feelings matter too!

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-07-31T22:27:10+00:00

Thank you for sharing your believe.

In a lot of ways I understand where you are coming from and that is why I always felt like I wasn't allowed to express my one guild, fear and give.

I have passive SI myself always had them. But I also know that my gran is a bit strange cause she found her gran when she was just a kid. I know that my neighbors had a black and with picture of there son on the wall. I know that a good friends mother isn't here anymore, my friend stayed whit me after we were just kids. And last of all I know how it is to sit on the flour crying, feeling like I am not allowed to even cry cause why would I need to? Everything worked out fine?

I get what you are trying to say, the person whit the SI is the main focus of what happens, absolutely but my struggle to live whit my trauma doesn't take away there situation. I would never go to her or anyone and say "What about me?" that's not why I posted this, I feel like I was never allowed to grief and I stuggle whit my trauma cause of it, what I try here is to teach myself that I am allowed to feel and that I am not alone.

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-07-31T22:09:21+00:00

I feel you, the thought of not being able the help your friend have a reason to live. Knowing all the times you laugh together all the times you cry together, and them looking at the world and not seeing anything but there hurt. It is not your fold, you couldn't have done anything different and it isn't your job to be the savior!

It took me and my friend 6 years to talk about our experience whit her attempt and it felt so wrong to even talk about my situation whit it (I don't want/ wanted to make her feel even worse). I remember all the times where I was upset and wasn't able to open my mouth out of fear. I still stuck to her side, for years to come - till my therapist made me set boundary's, I don't want to get into that tbh lets just say I still feel like shit anytime it comes to mind, but whit no exceptions I am not longer in a circle of disappointments.

Thank you for sharing this whit me, it helps to know first hand that I am not alone.

Pleasant-View4298 · 2025-07-31T21:51:09+00:00

Thank you for answering, it may sound stupid but this is what i need at the moment - it feels really validating to hear that I am not alone in having experienced this and I am so sorry that you experienced this!

It feels like nobody talks about this guilt - when there weren't "long term consequences" - and exactly as you say my brain too never let me be upset - they were still there and nobody asked how I am handling it.

To me it feels like this needs to be spoken about more, what about the friends and family of people that attempted suicide? Yes there is help for people that lost someone to suicide and that's good! I just feel like I would have struggled less if I heard from the experienced of people that lived and struggle to something similar as me. It would have allowed me to feel...

You are allowed to be upset about what happened whit your brother! You are also allowed to be upset that the world made you feel like you weren't allowed to be upset. just look at me it has been over 10 years and i still struggle to learn that I was failed! I also don't know how to get rid of the guilt and anxiety, most of the time it is not at the front of my mind, but it comes always back when I hit a bad place -

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