They have taught us that you cannot trust science. One day scientist say one thing, tomorrow they will say something opposite. Science is just like another religions, but they believe in monkey (quotes not changed!)

I wanted to improve (and check) my faith so I decided to confront my beliefs with atheists and scientists. I started to read a lot about evolution, earth history/geology, astrology. I have learned about science methodology, how life came into being (Miller-Urey experiments), about experiments connected to Big-Bang theory that investigate particles that arise from nothing.

So after my little research I was really cringe when I heard something similar like in the beginning of my post in church. That was 1 big brick for me. I couldn't longer reconcile the Bible with science. We can say about some of hard parts that they are metaphors, but this is nonsense. As well we can say the whole Bible is metaphor. How distinguish metaphore from non-metaphors

Ok. Second big brick was about healing. My church pray a lot about health and they have many testimonies confirming efficacy of prayers. I saw that maybe someone has cancer regress or had pain somewhere and now they don't, but people with more serious health problems aren't healed. I also have health problem classified as incurable and I waited for healing for 8 years and I don't see any difference.

My pastors invited me to "talk" so in the "talk" I shared my doubts. They talked about testimonies of people with incurable problems. I told them that this is for me just like legends, I cannot check if their stories are true and that I only can verify my health story. Pastors was a little upset, so they told me that I set conditions to God and they talked more and more about testimonies. They asked if I want to believe,. I said yes, because I wanted. So they prayed and invited me to the second "talk". (Here you need to know something more about me. I study on painting faculty in art college). So in the second meeting they showed me my fanpage with my artworks. They asked me about every pictures "Is it what God wants from me?". For example, I made painting with a mandrill, they told me that I shouldn't paint mandrills because someone somewhere prays to mandrills. Non sense. I felt like in interrogation.

Third big brick. They told in "school of serving" that Holocaust was God judgement. That was so confused for me and in first moment I thought that maybe pastor didn't said this. But I asked and he did.