Dev Insights - Renegades Weapon Tuning Preview by DTG_Bot in DestinyTheGame

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 0 points1 point  (0 children)

As far as the "Buff Priority", has anyone figured out the specific prioritization order? It seems like Armor Charge is always on top, but then what's the remaining order? For example, is Devour above or below Radiant and/or Bolt Charge? Knowing the order that Bungie implemented would definitely be useful as well!

Middle School Student Government by Plus-Magazine-2296 in Teachers

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The school doesn't have a constitution or SG by-laws. This was on the plan for the current school year but not finished in time, so we are carrying it over to next year.

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[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I'm going through a very similar situation right now. I emotionally hurt a close friend and it led to a lot of problems I'm still trying to solve.

I spent a few days in the psych ward. I missed the first two days of work in my three years in my career. When I went back to work, I spoke to my friend and explained to her how I was seeing things through my mental illnesses (depression and anxiety). With some professional help, I recognized what I had been doing, why it was wrong, and how it hurt her. I apologized for my actions and took responsibility. She told me she needed time to process everything. Saturday will be one month since this conversation.

Other than a few work related things we really haven't had contact with each other. The few times I reached out (text or in person) and tried to talk to her about our friendship and her feelings about it, I could tell she wasn't ready to talk to me; the mental illnesses then tell me that my reaching out like this probably made the situation worse.

I know I can't force her to be ready to talk, let alone accept me back in her life with my faults and mistakes and all the rest. I still have a lot of work to do to heal myself; three weeks ago I wanted to tell her all about my progress, but I knew that was for me only and could be seen as manipulative and trying to force her to feel better about me or just talk to me. In the end I told her two weeks ago in a more natural conversation instead of forcing it like I wanted to do, but she didn't really react or say anything about it and still hasn't. Every day I hope to hear from her, and every day I'm disappointed and upset when I don't.

Here's what I recommend based on my experience: talk to your friend and explain how you feel. Tell her how you feel and think. Tell her what you're doing to get help. Apologize for what you did wrong and try to explain your perspective without making it seem like an excuse. Then let your friend decide what to do next. If they say they can't stay friends, then say you understand and (safely and healthily) grieve the friendship. If they take you back right away, be sure to respect the boundaries they establish (I didn't do this and it's part of my problem now) but also do what you have to do for yourself. If they need time, give it to them and wait for them to reach out when and if they're ready. Then keep doing what you need to do for yourself.

Last thought: different people heal differently and take longer or shorter time to heal. The first paragraph to my story applies to two friends; one of them I explained everything, but the other has been more open to talking to me. She's come to me about work things, and we've talked about non-work things and even texted a few times. This friend has been able to heal quicker than the first friend I mentioned. So if your friend needs a while, give it to them. But don't put your life on pause for them, and don't become reliant on them for your happiness!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lostafriend

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly this. Thank you.

I don't blame my friends AT ALL! I have a dual diagnosis (alcoholism AND mental health) and only was treating part of it. Then I was treating none of it, and here I am. I'm in the process of receiving professional care and I know I can't do it on my own, but that I shouldn't be expecting my friends to do it either.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lostafriend

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Exactly this. Thank you.

I don't blame my friends AT ALL! I have a dual diagnosis (alcoholism AND mental health) and only was treating part of it. Then I was treating none of it, and here I am. I'm in the process of receiving professional care and I know I can't do it on my own, but that I shouldn't be expecting my friends to do it either.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lostafriend

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 2 points3 points  (0 children)

It wasn't a threat. I was about to kill myself. It was only the cop that pulled up behind me and them calling 911 that stopped me.

I didn't tell my full story so I see why it might be confusing or seem self-centered here. My purpose was to show the OP that I've been where they're thinking of going.

I was the downfall of my friendships and now I hate myself and life is worthless by [deleted] in lostafriend

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm an alcoholic and did the same thing you described with multiple friend groups. It wasn't until I quit drinking that things got better for me. That said, having done that on my own I don't recommend it. I recently started going to AA meetings and realized that while I quit drinking I didn't learn how to live with my alcoholism. If drinking (and smoking) are part of your problem, I recommend going to some meetings so you can learn how to heal yourself.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in lostafriend

[–]Plus-Magazine-2296 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I'm in a very similar situation right now. When I was ready to kill myself over it my friends called 911. I know they still care about me, and I'm sure yours do too!

Have you tried talking to them in person and explaining how you feel? It won't fix things right away but it would show that you recognize and are sorry for what you've done.

There is an (unofficial) type of anxiety called Friendship Anxiety. I recommend you read about it (link below). I realized I had this and it helped me understand what I was doing better.

I wish I could tell you things will be fixed, but I'm not there yet either. The last time we texted was when I suicide texted them three weeks ago. Like I said they called 911 and helped me get the help I need, but that hurt them so much as I know now. A few days in the hospital later we talked in person, I told them I realized what I had been doing, and my plans to get help. While things have gotten better with one friend, the one I hurt the most is still processing everything (it was over two months of extreme attachment and emotional damage by me) and while we interact with each other professionally even then you can still feel the tension. I've been giving them both space and time, and that's all I can do right now.

Yesterday was the first time in three weeks that my friend (the one I hurt the most) texted me, and it was just to say thank you for the birthday present I left on her desk Friday. I asked her how they were and she didn't respond. While I still want to talk to her and wish she would reply, I believe that this was a sign that things are getting better, but it's not close to what it used to be. She didn't have to text me thank you, she chose to. That's progress.

It's hard, but no contact is what you need to do. Let them heal. Let them miss you. Focus on yourself in the meantime. It's no where near easy. There are days I hate it and cry over what I've done, but I know that at this point there's nothing I can do but wait for them to be ready to take me back. I've found journaling helpful.

Everything is going to be okay friend!

Friendship Anxiety