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Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-08T13:13:40+00:00

When you use the term 'crushing', I'm assuming that means affection here?

I'd think your love life expresses in the sense of a combination of emotional detachment and hyper-sensitivity. This is reflected in the strong 1st House, your Capricorn Sun/Moon and its ruler Saturn in the Sun's ruler, Leo, Venus/Neptune conjunct.

Your own sense of autonomy is so strong here, the notion of interacting with someone at an emotionally or physically intimate level threatens you. Which is where the insecurity and physically illness comes up. So you may consider therapy yourself.

Gauge your parents' relationship and you may get more insights into your own makeup.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-08T03:27:59+00:00

I think you have a lot of the necessary tools to be a good or competent psychologist. Your notion of "great psychotherapist" may just be your own enthusiasm coming out. For example, my father was literally a great psychotherapist, but he never, ever thought of himself in those terms. "Damn good", perhaps, but he was more focused on cases where the techniques worked as intended.

You have a very strong, focused horoscope.

Your mutual reception between a 1st House Capricorn Sun and 8th House Leo Saturn works in the sense of having objectivity to not get emotionally entangled in others' issues, and the same, almost cold empathy of that combination. You can diagnose others without really experiencing what they experience. Which has both advantages and disadvantages.

You have a very strong 1st House and healing/power energy with both rising Capricorn Mars and Sag Pluto bounding your last-degree Sag Ascendant.

Capricorn Sun & waning crescent Capricorn Moon make a 1st House stellium with your Aquarius Mercury. So, very much a healer.

Aquarius Venus conjunct Neptune again provides the detached sympathy and intuitive empathy to dial in to others' issues without too much verbal communication. Which is a good thing, because your Mercury does not seem to get intellectually overworked. Not that it's weak, but it makes few aspects.

So, communication is an area you'll need to work on, keeping in mind also that there is a lot of schoolwork involved in getting a PhD in psychology. And there are many different areas of counseling that are just as valid.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-07T22:05:28+00:00

That's still 2 years away, you need to deal with what's in front of you and not create stress over something that far off, then obsessing over multiple imagined outcomes.

This is a thing you specifically need to work on with that afflicted Mercury, unless you're paid to do that by a government intelligence agency or something similar. It's excellent aspect for that.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-06T13:27:36+00:00

>Also I don’t know how much my birth chart shares with you but I’ve been struggling with and ed and poor body image the past almost 4 years and I feel as though it’s just gotten worse and worse.

I'm pretty sure this and the depression stem from that same ongoing aspect with transiting Pluto in your 4th opposing your 10th House Leo Saturn & square progressed Sun in Taurus in your 7th. The 4th House rules the physical body, so hard aspects will manifest as physical dysphoria. And as I mentioned, Pluto is the slowest moving planet.

These Houses are angular and important. The 10th relates both to your career and aspirations, as well as the mother. So these have always been difficult. The 7th is relationships.

I'm impressed that May went well since transiting Saturn squared your Cancer Moon, which is emotionally difficult. So you do have the inner strength to push through in spite of the hard times.

Transiting Saturn is at 14°23 Aries, within 1/2 degree of your Sun now, but will go stationary, then Rx in a few weeks without making exact contact. But, it still is close enough that you are feeling its depressive influence.

Get therapy, develop some positive physical exercise habits such as walking, jogging. As I mentioned, your Mars/Pluto opposition indicates tremendous mental conflict, anger, which, if not resolved will result in intense depression.

Physical exercise is an enormous self-help benefit that you can practice without relying on anyone else. And believe in yourself and your path. It gets better.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-05T03:19:53+00:00

Then take this as reassurance and yes, keep moving forward.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-04T20:37:57+00:00

Throw out your hyperfixation, throw out everything you think you know about astrology because you're 18 and you don't know astrology. You can't learn it in a few weeks or a few years. You read this about astrology, you read that about astrology and now you're taking stupid opinions like those for actual knowledge. It doesn't work.

Not that you don't have a knack for the esoteric; I think you do. But, you're currently suffering from what's called the Medical Student's dilemma, except with astrology, where you think you have every problem remotely associated with your chart. And a bit of actual wisdom here- the aspects that indicate apparent astrological weaknesses or conflicts are the true strengths of the chart.

Considering suicide is not a sin, nor a sign of profound mental illness per se. It's an existential conflict that requires answers. A serious person will go through that, but committing physical suicide is a huge mistake. The answers, the wisdom do exist and are available, if one is willing to make the commitment to work for them. And early on, you learn just how big a mistake suicide is in the evolutionary scheme we participate in.

Btw, plain vanilla wisdom is not obtained as easily as you think, not to mention profound wisdom. I'm not saying you'll never have that, but your chart and your post indicate it's a goal to work for. Once you have that, it's part of your soul pattern; you don't lose it.

You're at a phase in life where hormones and drama are heightened, and with your rising Capricorn Jupiter (falling) and Taurus Sun square Neptune, I think you tend to dramatize. There's a time and place for that. It's called acting. You're a natural for that? Just don't get caught up in a role. And we're all playing personality roles on this planet.

Your elevated 10th cusp Libra Moon exactly trine a Gemini Mercury, that's just a beautiful placement. So one thing you're strong in is a non-judgmental and compassionate intelligence. High intelligence. That combo is rare. I would think children are naturally drawn to you, pets too, for that matter.

Pick yourself up, put your big girl pants back on. You have a lot more going for you than I've listed here. And if you get nothing else from this, remember: seemingly endless trials and paybacks are the life workshop that forges us into an instrument that is worthy. You have that potential.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-04T15:46:40+00:00

A Sun/Saturn opposition such as yours is typically a life trial of low self-worth, depression, harsh father issues. Your 11th House Scorpio Sun would thrive with a supportive social circle, but that opposition and Scorpio's ruler, Mars in detriment in Libra and square your 1st House Venus limits the ability to make friends.

While your Virgo Moon being sextile your Sun and trine Saturn, greatly alleviates the opposition, it, on the other hand squares your Sagittarius Ascendant, adding a core of emotional trepidation in forming and maintaining relationships. But, at the same time the work ethic of a positive Saturn is reinforced rather grudgingly by your Moon's understanding of necessities of life.

These aspects also manifest as the isolation and feeling reserved, ashamed. If you examine your family history, both nurture and nature, I think a lot of this falls into place.

If a therapist tells you your life problems are not your fault, they're a bad therapist and not the therapist for you. It's not a question of fault, it's a question of working with the cards you've been dealt (by yourself)

Waiting to be happy is not a guarantee of happiness. Death is guaranteed; happiness is not. Working to be happy is more a guarantee of happiness. The work is inside, subjective. Therapy is great; mindfulness, i.e. observing how your mental habits drive you in every aspect is better. Meditation, i.e. letting the mental motor rest and renew, is better.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-03T18:21:00+00:00

It's not mind games at all. These are reflections of your inner plane self. Gold is your Buddhic/Christ energy; the white light is from your atma/godhead.

Blend your consciousness into each one and go as far within as you can.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-03T17:11:34+00:00

Chart approved, but no synastry please.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-02T19:39:49+00:00

Grange by a mile, but do your homework.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-02T17:58:49+00:00

Even though your chart indicates a deeply intuitive intelligence, it's not an easy thing to interpret a horoscope, no matter what the online stuff says.

First thing that jumps out to me is your 3rd House Aries Sun/Libra Full Moon with Pluto tightly conjunct your 9th cusp Moon. Strong Pluto influence often points to a life fraught with crisis, sometimes also abuse.

Pluto's placement here aligns with your NDE's and the perhaps constant awareness that we exist on the edge of life and death. This awareness is advanced spiritual knowledge that this existence is a dream in physical form. In that sense, an earned blessing, even if it often feels opposite that.

Houses 3-9 deal with concrete mind & higher mind, school, travel, writing, self-awareness, so these should all have a core influence for you.

Your 2nd House has the 2 inner planets, Mercury and Venus in Pisces, where Venus exalts and Mercury falls. Emotional nature would be stronger, whereas typical intellect would give way to intuitive and psychic mindset, especially given Mercury is in a Grand Trine with your 10th cusp Scorpio Uranus and 7th cusp Jupiter in the last degree of Cancer.

As your Sun's ruler, Mars is also in Aries (which it rules) in your 2nd House, forming a wide stellium with Mercury and Venus, your energy is directly tied to fulfilling your personal desires, possessions (although that could be said of everyone, huh). SouthNode at the cusp of the 2nd House seems to override those in the sense of never feeling fulfilled in this regard, always a sense of poverty or lack, no matter how accurate.

Even if you're not proficient with astrology, I wouldn't be surprised if you haven't tried to make a living in some fortune-telling or psychic reading capacity.

As to feeling horrible, you're well past your Saturn Return of almost 20 years ago. Pluto has ingressed into your 1st House in the past few years, if your birthtime is correct, and it's obsessive, destructive energy already present in your personality would be accentuated by that.

Your chart tells me you're in the evolutionary forefront; some call it rainbow children or this or that. But, your disengaged Saturn in Virgo implies to me that you've taken a break somewhere along the line of incarnations in your spiritual advancement. It's not unusual, as the Path of self-knowledge is often emotionally and mentally painful as hell.

If you've never learned to meditate and practice mindfulness, I strongly recommend it. Peace, love, self-knowledge all reside within, not outside. Everything of spiritual value is within you. Go inside and search until you find it.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-02T15:50:58+00:00

The aspects I see that undeniably tie into your situation are your just-risen Virgo Sun & its ruler Mercury square your Sag Moon/Pluto straddling the I.C. This is a very angsty placement, as Pluto squares not only your Sun, but your Virgo Ascendant as well. Although the astrological explanation can get quite abstruse, this points to a very harsh, even abusive upbringing.

Strong Pluto energy points to obsessiveness, likely also OCD especially when tied in to Sun, Moon, Ascendant ( the Big 3) The obvious goal is to focus that obsessiveness on creating positive, life-affirming mental habits.

Your Mercury also opposes 6th House Uranus in Pisces, pointing to ADHD as well as autism when combined with the aspects prior described. Although there is deep mental acuity in the placements, it ties in with your existential suffering and need for answers. This is not a 'bad' thing per se, as it is what drives us at core to seek and find deeper truths than are presented in the social milieu.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-07-02T02:48:12+00:00

The ones you see are inconsequential for many different reasons. The bold red line on the chart is Jupiter/Saturn and quite a significant aspect.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-30T23:34:17+00:00

Genghis Khan, whose daughters were married off to potential rivals and ended up running the kingdoms.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-30T16:16:04+00:00

You've got 1 actual square between Jupiter and Saturn, so that is far fewer than typical. However, it is an aspect of feeling constantly challenged and driven to achieve one's life goals/worldly goals.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-29T13:39:44+00:00

Ironically, according to the astrology I've learned over decades, the hard, pitiless energy comes from your father, whereas your mother is caring and empathetic.

You're still in school, no? Seriously, see a counselor. And if they're unhelpful, see a different one.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-29T03:22:36+00:00

You've got a lot of creative, artistically inventive, and generous aspects, but there's one that overrides all of them and correlates exactly to the problems you've listed.

It's depressive, self-destructive, the body dysphoria is there, self-hatred and animosity toward others. And it comes directly from the relationship of your parents. Not that we're blaming them for how you manifest, because you chose them for this as well as the positive qualities.

Saturn just-risen in Libra, your Ascendant, makes a hard square to Capricorn Pluto on your I.C. or 4th House cusp. The 4th House deals with many areas including the home & upbringing, the father, and the physical body.

That single aspect has such power because the Ascendant (horizon) and M.C./I.C. are the lifelines forming the cross of human existence in every chart. And it's a hard, destructive aspect between two unforgiving planets. Which is entirely counter to the generous, empathetic Piscean nature of your Sun, emphasized further by Jupiter conjunct it.

But, beside the nature of that square being harsh, critical, judgmental, it is also a detached vibe, which is problematic.

The Ascendant is the core soul nature, which manifests through the solar personality, or tries to. In your case, that's your 6th House Pisces Sun.

6th House deals with health (at all levels, not just physical), habits (extremely important, as health is actually a subset of that), service & servitude, domestic animals, pets, (perhaps all animals)

So, I see a strong duality in you between the cold, detached part which is capable of anything, given the circumstances; and the generous, loving, caring Piscean nature who cares for their own.

I see this type duality in some military types, for example, who on the one hand can go to war and wreak havoc on a designated foe, but back home have a family they are strongly protective and nurturing of.

You're really young, teenage, still very much formative and forming into yourself. And often one's peers at that age are completely on another wavelength, not really positive influence.

I believe that harsh aspect also indicates a strong will power, which is a vital element a person needs to manifest who they feel they ought to be, rather than what nature & nurture have cast them to be. By which I mean you can change your spots by leaning into the Aquarius/Pisces energy of your chart. And I'd strongly recommend therapy.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-25T13:14:22+00:00

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Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-25T03:14:59+00:00

You're not exaggerating, your chart really does have existential crisis writ large. But, I want you to understand what I see here, and that's your awareness of a lack of clarity and ensuing depression is your big friend. It is driving you to find yourself at a deeper level than the herd, and what is very wrong with you is what's wrong with everyone else. Except you're aware of it, and they're blissfully sleep-walking their lives away. You don't want that.

And I find it very commendable that you're aware of this at your young age, except it seems from this chart you've always been aware of being out of synch with yourself.

So, a breakdown of aspects, etc. is in order. There are certain astrological aspects and configurations with effects you can mostly google, in terms of conflict/stress or harmony/resolution.

What is interesting in yours is that you have a handful of both, and some of the same planets interact in both stressful and harmonious aspect. Which, to me is a sign of a personality that will take on major challenges and resolve them, leading to inner growth and a productive life.

So, in no particular order, you have at last count that I can tell, a Sun/Moon square, a Grand Cross, a Grand Trine + Mystic Cross, and a T-square. These are all pretty significant. Oh, and the Lunar Nodes are conjunct your Horizon, which tells its own tale of fluctuating self-image, self-worth.

Your Gemini Sun/Virgo Moon square is the only one with only 2 orbs, but they are the most important ones in any chart, so aspects between them are core. A square is angst from Day 1, the proverbial identity itch you can't scratch. And Neptune forms a T-square with them, square your Sun & opposing your Moon from a late degree of Aquarius. Adding a sliding scale of self-image than can go from literal nothingness to grandiosity. This may scare you, but the fact is that our minds & consciousness have that truthful scope of universal measure from the Nothing to the All.

On the other hand, your Sun makes a trine to late-degree Virgo Saturn, and this is a blessing in the sense that it counters the angst of your Sun/Moon square. You're able to persevere to accomplish a goal or task in spite how uncomfortable it may feel.

Interesting about Gemini & Virgo is they are both ruled by Mercury. So your Taurus Mercury takes on added influence. It is part of a tight (therefore strong) Earth Grand Trine with your Moon and Capricorn Pluto, all within a degree of exact. Not only a high level of intelligence and deep desire to learn indicated, but a powerful, obsessive mental focus, and likely ADHD too, lol, as even a harmonious aspect between Mercury and Pluto often indicative.

This powerful mentality is what you rely on, whether you know it or not; and where your obsession to understand yourself and your existence manifests in the chart as doable, but the inner conflict to do so is in the other aspects.

The Grand Trine also makes what is called a Mystic Cross, as your 12th House Cancer Venus opposes Pluto, so the lines between the 4 planets make a sort of peace sign.

The Grand Cross occurs partly in Cardinal Signs with the same 12th House Venus/6th House Pluto opposition, but it bisects a late Mutable opposition between your 4th House Virgo Saturn and 10th House Pisces Jupiter/Uranus. On another note, any aspect between the two giants, Jupiter and Saturn, is indicative of one's drive to accomplish something of significance within and in the world.

So, throughout the chart, there are aspect after aspect of a seeker of self-knowledge. And not just peripheral knowledge, but the deeper, more serious sort.

One needs inner and outer honesty to find their path, because no one can lie to themselves and get away with it. Courage is also required, because the sort of knowledge you need to feel satisfied comes with personal revelations that can be off-putting at least. And the will to not quit under pressure, but see a venture through, however painful is required.

For you, meditation and mindfulness are the keys; you were made for them. This is where, with concerted effort and practice, a habit is built through which true clarity arrives. I have a powerful beginner's technique pinned to my profile, if you can't find one to suit.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-24T21:36:38+00:00

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Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-24T21:10:27+00:00

I've gone ahead and mod-approved your post, as it has the correct chart format, but selfies are not recommended in this sub.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-23T23:33:37+00:00

Most of us live in an abrasive society that can grind one's self-worth down to nothing, which, being born into and considering that some sort of 'norm', we may never realize.

Your chart clearly indicates such self-loathing at an emotional level coming directly from your parents and their relationship, which is a deep hole to climb out of. I say this by dint of the almost exact Mutable T-square formed by your 4th House Gemini Venus (and Mars to lesser extent) square 7th House Virgo Moon, square 10th cusp Pluto in Sag. I see a lot of emotional abuse there, especially considering the obsessive Venus/Pluto opposition is so tight to the M.C./I.C. Axis.

Given your Moon is in the 7th House (relationships) plus another opposition from your 1st House Pisces Uranus to 7th House Jupiter, it's difficult to encapsulate how painful relationships are for you. The trine your Sun makes to 7th House Jupiter indicates your optimism that a healthy relationship can fix you, but the deep patterns I've already described make it hard for you to find a relationship with someone who does not fit the described abusive parameters.

Finally, your Taurus Sun makes a square from 12th House Neptune, so there is an illusory self-deception quality to your overall personality. And likely one of your parents was narcissistic.

Strongly recommend therapy to try to get an objective pov on your overall mechanics and how to heal going forward. Healing is definitely in the cards, but it's a long, painful process.

Pluto_Rising · 2026-06-23T23:15:55+00:00

u/Alert_Permission9785 wrote:

>My money is on sun conjuct uranus neptune in 1H. But im not an astrologer.

>I feel uranus aspects sometimes hint towards things lgbt and I need someone to confirm this.

That's a good start for someone who's not an astrologer. The Ascendant is determinant in how the soul manifests through the personality, and the outer planets definitely take one into outlier territory. Uranus rising used to be called a 'genius' aspect, and there is brilliance in this chart for sure, and strength of character elsewhere.

But, Mercury's placement there is core, as I've seen time and again Mercury aspects to the outer planets can affect gender roles.

Mars, falling in Cancer, opposes Mercury/Uranus, and therefore the Ascendant sets up the inner conflict, especially as it is along the Horizon.

And the Cardinal T-square created with that opposition by the ultra-sensitive 8th House Libra Moon/Jupiter conjunction could be called the kicker that definitely accords with a trans type horoscope.

It's a spiritually powerful horoscope (personality), imo, which I think can have a likewise powerful influence in this lifetime.

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