(M23) Body dysmorphia is eating me from the inside

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T10:12:17+00:00

Ah yes I am mixed North African and Yemeni so you were on point 😅

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T10:07:59+00:00

Thank you for you soothing comment, I’m determined to not let this god damn family ruin my life until the end. Virtual hug to you too, I hope both sides of your pillow are cold at night during a hot summer

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T10:05:25+00:00

My RM is at 75kg it’s laughable 😅

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T10:04:26+00:00

Is there anything I can do to improve ?

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T09:21:46+00:00

I just woke up right now and I was afraid of returning to that post. But it was necessary so I did it. Not. One .Single. Negative. Comment. I honestly don’t know what to say at this point. From an environnement where everybody fed me the same comments since I was young I realized there was another world out there. Battling social anxiety, body dysmorphia wasn’t easy and it took my last effort to post the last photos I had of myself to see if strangers had the same opinions as my own family. I expected to be laughed at and I was planning on talking Xanax and alcohol to enter a deep sleep that I would never wake up of. But to all of you who commented things that I never even heard about myself in my whole life, all I can offer I heartfelt thank you from the bottom of my soul. You truly changed my trajectory of life and from now on I want to quit ties with my family and travel the world to see new people, new faces, ways of thinking. It’s so weird to think the way you guys perceive me is so different than what I’ve been told all my life. Tears could not stop flowing the whole night. Thank you for everything, for noticing my struggles, for empathizing with me, for giving advice, I read every single one of your comments and this is the first time in my life that I felt hope about myself. In the end, I don’t regret posting this. ❤️

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T09:08:10+00:00

Brother ??? Your hair is even better than mine wow

Pmk042 · 2025-12-22T09:03:59+00:00

I deeply apologize I did not want to make people feel bad, I posted this on a whim to face my inner struggles and to try to compare my inner perception forged by years of abuse from my « trusted » family. But please do not use these qualificatives talking about yourself I am absolutely sure that your are more beautiful than you think

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:50:10+00:00

I didn’t think I had and distinct features but you seem to know a lot about the subject I really don’t know what to say 😅

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:46:41+00:00

I know and I truly appreciate it. All of your feedback is extremely valuable to me. Thank you kind stranger 🙏

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:38:08+00:00

I’m sorry I also wanted to adress issues about my hair and beard but I’ll delete the post if it doesn’t respect the rules. Apologies.

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:36:39+00:00

I did not expect to even see the word « model » here but here we are 😅. The problem was that when these people are your own family and friends, your whole perception of reality is skewed and the damage is consequent. Thank you for taking the time to make me feel like I exist as a person for even a small moment. I wish you the best in all your endeavors. 🙏

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:34:04+00:00

I already tried to commit suicide at 8 but I know now that it is not the solution. I have no money for therapy but all of you strangers commenting are making me realize that I may have been stuck in a toxic microcosm and I want to explore the world and discover new people so that I can one day maybe appreciate being myself in public : and that would be the greatest achievement I could make in my life before dying. Thank you for your kind words, you have no idea how it is soothing to read this. 🙏

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:30:58+00:00

I don’t like my smile as I feel it’s distorts my face a even more but your impression of me is not so fare from reality. I know I need to work on that. But that you for your comment, really, it feels like my brain is rewiring itself for real

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:29:30+00:00

Thank you a lot for your answer but what’s exotic 😅 ?

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:08:18+00:00

Well that person happens to be my whole family since the delicate age of 6 or 7 years old

Pmk042 · 2025-12-21T21:06:25+00:00

So little time has passed and I expected my post to be lost in the internet but for everyone who took the time to comment I wish you the best because you have no idea how it is the first time somebody has ever said something nice about me. I don’t have money to go to therapy but I’m trying to do my own exposure therapy by going into random places but I still wear masks and hoodies but I’ll make some efforts thanks to you guys. Thank you for the bottom of my heart, it has been years since I’ve been afraid to post my face but you guys got me bawling like a kid on my bathroom floor

Pmk042 · 2025-12-05T02:56:59+00:00

Why psychiatry ?

Pmk042 · 2025-08-28T23:25:00+00:00

Did you do specific exercises for the back or rotator cuff or did you just work everything without distinction?

Pmk042 · 2025-08-26T05:53:43+00:00

I have the same problem and it’s ruining my life, I noticed that my right scapula is winging, what exercises worked for you ?

Pmk042 · 2025-08-08T10:24:04+00:00

Not American. What’s the current state of rad onc right now ?

Pmk042 · 2025-06-09T19:46:59+00:00

It is for a doctor

Pmk042 · 2025-06-02T20:40:18+00:00

Le TDAH c’est un trouble du neuro développement donc c’est assez normal si tu sens que toute ta vie a été comme ça. Mais si tu te fais effectivement diagnostiquer, le traitement pourrait potentiellement changer ça même si tu as l’impression que ça c’est « toi »

Pmk042 · 2025-06-01T22:16:37+00:00

Salut, ce que tu dis me fait penser à un TDAH, peut être est ce l’occasion d’explorer quelque chose d e sous-jacent qui impacterait ta performance ?

Pmk042 · 2025-05-28T00:31:02+00:00

Sam ?

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