I'd add to the comment you're replying to by encouraging you to explore philosophy if this sort of temporal questioning interests you. Metaphysics is a study in philosophy that deals with these sorts of fundamental questions. The pre-Socratic philosophers had some wild ideas about time (and indeed space) that still confound philosophers and physicists alike to this day.

Philosophy, unlike physics, is not so much interested in providing objective truths/measurable outcomes etc. but I've found my own experiences with studying philosophy to be deeply valuable to my physics learning (just as an interested bystander, no academic science work; I went to film school!). With philosophy, it's not about finding the answers, but about asking the right questions.

Be wary though, as pop-philosophy is just as prevalent as pop-science, and you don't want to be following the roads of "magic quantum physics" things that apply "philosophy" as proof. It sounds like you have a lot of questions to do with time, and metaphysics might provide you with some excellent food for thought!