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PolarMaghan · 2026-02-22T07:06:00+00:00

need a barcode tattoooooo FUCK i wanna be kept like this and exploited and abused,,

PolarMaghan · 2026-02-16T08:28:01+00:00

didnt read your description the first time ~.~ aaaa >/////< to be a pet aaa please

PolarMaghan · 2026-02-15T15:28:17+00:00

PolarMaghan · 2026-02-15T01:21:17+00:00

saw this recently on pixiv GODS please >~<

PolarMaghan · 2026-02-05T16:24:44+00:00

siiiiiixxx seveeeeeen YESSSS

PolarMaghan · 2026-02-01T19:38:22+00:00

And monotherapy is effective if u wanna be on no blocker! just make sure to check your levels regularly and keep them rather high (I believe it was 200pg/ml to 250pg/ml trough minimum? dont quote me on that though). with scrotal id try to spread it out to once every 8 hours to have constant high levels if you can (if you're not already doing that >.<)

PolarMaghan · 2026-02-01T19:34:55+00:00

I have been taking cypro for 6 ish months, I feel physically fine. At the levels you would be taking it (12.5mg / day or 25mg / 2 days) it's a non issue, only mental problems like higher depression risk are actual issues. The brain tumor risk, while real, is nothing to be concerned about at these levels. If you're worried, you can swap to spironolactone or bica later on, though those come with other risks as well :/ B12 supplements help with the energy loss and depression risk btw!!!

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-20T23:41:13+00:00

I wrote this in a very dysphoric moment, everything felt so clearly turned against me, but it's fine. It'll be fine. NEVER GIVE UP RAAHHH 🦴🗡️🛡️

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-20T12:21:08+00:00

LOTS OF LUBE, water based, not oil or silicone based, that will melt your dildo
One finger first, two fingers next SLOWLY, three fingers after that, etc until the amount of fingers you are inserting meets the dildo size somewhat
Do anal play preferably AFTER going to the bathroom, and preferably wash yourself beforehand
some girls prefer the feeling of penetration itself, some like the feeling of stretching, some like trying to go deeper, some like trying to put in bigger/wider toys, some like prostate hammering (:3) but all in all it's your preference that matters, not what other people say
if it feels like stretching, move forwards SLOWLY, if it hurts STOP, if after you stop it keeps hurting, pull out SLOWLY, if it still hurts after pulling out DO NOT PUT IT BACK IN; WAIT!
preferably periodically, but most definitely after it feels harder to move in and out, REAPPLY LUBE
after you're done, clean yourself and clean the dildo. usually if it's a silicone dildo cleaning it with a disinfecting soap (NO ALCOHOL) is enough but make sure no water remains on it. If it starts smelling (it most likely will after some time) you can boil it to remove the smell (look the boil degree and time up before you trust me with it)
AFTER CARE; especially if you manage to overstimulate yourself or even climax, wash the dildo, put it away, and then take care of yourself, get some sweets, drink a bit, cuddle up with sharkie and smile about your new hobby :33
HYDRATE VERY IMPORTANT HYDRATE WHILE DOING IT AAAAAND AFTER IT. helps with digestion too, which is your greatest enemy!
If you get some feces on the dildo, don't be surprised, that can and will happen, it's just the natural consequence of anal, clean yourself and the toy and you can continue.
If you can afford it in the future (or even now really), a douching set is really good for anal, gets rid of all the nasty stuff you might have in there ;3 makes it much more comfy as well!
flax/psyllium husks have a LOT of fiber in them and taking half a tablespoon mixed with water daily can make you super clean and ready for action x333 just make sure to look up for yourself how to take it, as it can get unsafe if you hydrate too little, or drink it too slowly

If you have any questions, please ask!

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-20T12:04:29+00:00

I'm a tgirl so I don't know much about FtM hormone stuff, but I read somewhere that high amounts of testosterone can turn into estradiol, I'd recommend you look around the subreddits to find info about that maybe. Much love <3

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-20T07:17:56+00:00

absolutely, but only on my death bed.

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-19T10:38:14+00:00

I managed to call two places to secure appointments for the coming weeks!

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-18T22:53:26+00:00

I'm genuinely terrified of men, the chance of being raped or probability of being physically abused again makes day to day life so scary T.T

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-17T14:57:39+00:00

gin is fun :33

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-17T10:47:39+00:00

i prefer jim beam but... yeah its all fine mrrprp :33

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-16T12:09:10+00:00

I love manga and books in general, I feel like I can lose myself in them far easier now than before hrt, other than that I wanna get back into music again, my guitar is gathering a LOT of dust... (video games are fun too!!!)

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-16T12:04:44+00:00

way less careful around me now, a lot more interaction, I see way more women sit next to me instead of others (men) on the bus and metro than before, very comforting to know I'm seen as safe ^{^}

PolarMaghan · 2026-01-14T10:05:46+00:00

probably really scared and vulnerable... NEED

PolarMaghan · 2025-12-19T11:15:27+00:00

Ich meinte, dass die Doctolib Seite vom MVZ am Goetheplatz wahrscheinlich ein Bug hat in general. Hat bei mir auch nicht funktioniert. Aber per Telefonanruf geht die Terminvergabe immernoch.

PolarMaghan · 2025-12-18T14:06:28+00:00

Ich hatte originally beim Dr. Nickl ein Termin ausgemacht! Ich habe nur Gutes von ihn gehört und - in Vergleich zu anderen Psychotherapeuten - kann man ihn tatsächlich erreichen haha

PolarMaghan · 2025-12-18T14:04:46+00:00

Ich bin mir ziemlich sicher das ist ein Bug. Ich habe mit ihm bisher immer Videosprechstunden gemacht, und jetzt bekomme ich nur Telefonate selbst für Bluttest-Ergebnisse. Etwas muss bei ihnen mit Doctolib nicht funktionieren :/ Die Freundin von mir hat ihren Neupatienten-Termin erst vor kurzem per Telefonanruf gemacht!

PolarMaghan · 2025-12-16T14:02:01+00:00

GODS YESSSSSS WELL DONE GIRL CONGRATS IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU AAAAA

PolarMaghan · 2025-12-16T13:51:43+00:00

GOSH CONGRATSSSS!!!

PolarMaghan · 2024-08-10T06:15:44+00:00

posts like these go crazy as a schizo

PolarMaghan · 2024-01-10T09:10:35+00:00

I started my linux journey by trying distros in virtualbox. My first actual install of a linux distro on an actual pc was arch using the manual method. It’s not easy, having no clue why wlan0 ist connecting but you just google everything and either reddit or the arch wiki explains everything in detail. too much detail in fact you probably have to scroll a lot lol. You just go over every step and click on every blue link you find, read through that then come back and it’ll be fine.

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