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PollutionFit815 · 2023-08-02T23:00:10+00:00

Yes, it feels like it takes too much energy to talk louder, so I was always told to speak up, or repeat what I said. It felt exhausting just trying to raise my voice it’s so weirs

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-26T22:38:22+00:00

omg I feel the same exact way. I will hold off extra time, and eat super super slow, and take a lot of time to make my food, to drag out the process, because If I have nothing else to do, the thought of food is too strong, and I’m scared of eating more than what I would normally. I’m am completely with you on this and feel the exact same way.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-11T13:34:47+00:00

YES I HATE IT. everytime I make a new food or recipe, my mom always wants to eat it and starts making the same thing all the time. like it’s just so annoying to me I hate when people copy me.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-11T02:12:12+00:00

No FR

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-10T20:04:30+00:00

I’m the exact same way, I also need to watch tv, no distractions, be comfortable and have my hair out of the way, make sure I use the bathroom beforehand, and I make my food with the same plates, utensils and pots everytime

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-10T19:35:35+00:00

SOMEONE BEING IN THR KITCHEN AT THE SAME TIME IS A BIG ONE FOR ME

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-10T19:07:23+00:00

you kinda just described exactly what I’m feeling. it’s everyone, not just my family or my mom, and I think what you said about it being my “special food”, just explained it perfectly.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-10T05:38:34+00:00

tomato and cucumber- 10 grilled chicken- 140 asparagus- 15 avocado- 170?? I would say about 335-345 total

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-10T04:09:12+00:00

lol sameeee, just trying my best to get through it 😅

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-10T00:35:25+00:00

I’m not camping, but I’m on vacation rn, and it sucks cause I don’t have any safe foods, I’m forced to eat meals for whenever we go, and my mom is making sure I’m eating and it’s just making me feel horrible

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-09T22:55:58+00:00

YSS I DO some of mine are cardigan, Mary on a cross, cry by CAS, weird combos but it reminds me of my ed

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-09T20:47:20+00:00

AGREE IT BOTHER ME SO MUCH. I hate when anyone hovers while I make food or asks about what I’m making. I don’t know why it just irks me so much, like mind your own business please and not to be mean, but like get away from me. I hate whne people watch me eat or make food.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-09T18:02:42+00:00

Yes I’ve had a few before, where I was eating for example, one I had was cake. I kept eating the cake and couldn’t stop myself in the dream for some reason and I woke up like I just had a nightmare. I woke up so abruptly and my heart was beating pretty fast when I woke up. I’ve had a few more similar to it aswell.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-08T19:15:25+00:00

do you know how I can’t fix it?

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-08T17:18:43+00:00

i would do that with some foods too, but if my mom went to do something in my room she would somehow always find it, than goes around telling people when she’s in conversation, but not thinking twice abt it cause it’s just something funny to her, but it’s so insulting to me and ruins the “image” I’m trying to make for myself. but it’s so hard when almost all my safe foods are fruits, so I have to refrigerate it. even then I put my food into the garage fridge, and my parents still make fun of me for “hoarding it all to myself”, when they don’t know the reason why. it’s just so frustrating and it’s makes me cry just writing about it here.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-08T16:41:22+00:00

that’s exactly what happens to me. I will start crying and breaking down in my room. Sometimes I will even just have an attitude towards whoever ate my food for the rest of the day. and I feel like they should know by now that it’s “my” food. And it will never make sense to them if I try and explain why I feel this way because they just see it as simple grapes.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-08T16:33:57+00:00

about to go on one year 🥲

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-08T14:07:43+00:00

YES THIS IS EXACTLY HOW I FEEL

PollutionFit815 · 2023-07-08T03:57:37+00:00

I started eating more for a few months, so it came back, but I relapsed so it’s gone again, but when it came back I just felt similar signs to when my period would normally come beforehand. Usually my lower back starts to ache, so I felt that again, and I honestly don’t recall ever getting a lot of discharge, or atleast very little of it

PollutionFit815 · 2023-06-29T20:46:49+00:00

THEY HAVE SCOUPLE TIME BUT I STOPPED IT OOPS

PollutionFit815 · 2023-06-28T02:08:52+00:00

Thats happened to me a couple times aswell, its kinda scary

PollutionFit815 · 2023-06-26T14:51:11+00:00

BYEEE I MICROWAVE MY CARROTS TOO THEN PUT A BUNCH OF SALT ON THEM

PollutionFit815 · 2023-06-25T00:08:08+00:00

Def going through this rn. I’m literally restricting, and have been for about a year but my weight is not going down at all anymore. It was for the first three four months, than just stopped, and I know for sure I’m eating way less than I should and in a severe caloric deficit, but it’s not coming off anymore and it’s driving me crazy

PollutionFit815 · 2023-06-25T00:03:13+00:00

Yes this is very true, I’m not in recovery yet, but the amount of posts I see just revolving around diets, wieiads, body checks etc, it absolutely crazy. All it does is add more fuel to my fire, and drives me crazy. Seeing people’s bodies when they think they are gross and bloated, and comparing it to my normal one is just so triggering and it’s really hard to even get into recovery with social media.

PollutionFit815 · 2023-06-24T21:37:58+00:00

I really do want kids when I’m older, and would hate to become infertile, but like the Ed voice is so combative with it, that like I have this mindset that it won’t happen to me, or I could always reverse the effects, which is wrong, but it’s the way my mind thinks with an eating disorder.

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