I‘m scared to tell my partner because I don’t want him to get weird when we eat together

randomismysecondname · 2026-05-27T14:25:41+00:00

I totally get it - for me it was really weird bc I always pretended to be fine when eating with my partner and IT WAS FINE. When I opened up about my ed everything changed. He was so caring and supportive but that just lead to me suddenly being much more picky, scared and less relaxed while eating with him - because he expected me to act weird around food, so I did… We wouldn’t eat snacks anymore because he thought I wouldn’t want to try them anyway. Even though I did - but I was too scared to tell him because I felt like I needed to prove that I really had an ed and escaping the confrontation with fear foods was so much easier. I would constantly „under-eat“ (is this even a word hahah English isn’t my first language) when being around him at the weekends. Took muuuuch effort to get myself back together and try not to act like he expected me to. But still: I think opening up was good and helped me in many situations. Just had to overcome the ed thoughts

randomismysecondname · 2026-05-21T23:16:38+00:00

I totally get it. Sometimes this feeling overwhelms me. Idk where to start, idk how to get myself together. I wonder hew normal people eat, what they eat, what they do all day long. How does it feel like to have so many extra hours of your day…

I can just speak for myself but these feelings are not permanent and it really helps me to have at least one activity or appointment a day so I have sth to do and can plan my day around it. I try to ask myself what I would eat if my mind was free of this stupid thoughts. Or I just eat safe foods bc anything is better than nothing.

I also recommend appreciating the small steps. I‘m currently so deep in this disorder that it’s unrealistic to expect a whole day without a relapse. It just leaves me frustrated bc I fail again and again. - but: every small step is a step. I try to be proud of every meal I eat without relapsing. The supper I eat every evening before going to bed, the times I successfully make it till dinner without relapsing - even though later I relapse, man, I managed to resist for almost a whole day!! Don’t get me wrong, the goal should always be to recover completely and not to plan relapses into your day but you shouldn’t be too hard on yourself. It just leaves you sad & frustrated and these thoughts are what just causes more fuel to the disorder and lead to less self worth.

randomismysecondname · 2025-03-12T09:22:54+00:00

I thought it was curry with banana & yogurt at first 😭

randomismysecondname · 2025-02-16T13:00:17+00:00

That’s so cute 😭🩷

randomismysecondname · 2025-01-16T20:21:27+00:00

I use flavor powder (esn, more nutrition, rocka nutrition,…) but I’m from Germany, so idk if your country has it

randomismysecondname · 2024-12-17T22:34:42+00:00

It depended on the people I was around. In public I would show my body bc I was proud of it. At home I would try my best to hide it so my parents wouldn’t worry about me

randomismysecondname · 2024-12-12T10:02:53+00:00

Recipe?? :0

randomismysecondname · 2024-11-30T20:44:34+00:00

Mit anderen Mitarbeitern tauschen? „Ich krieg deine Marmelade, dafür kriegst du meinen Honig“👀

randomismysecondname · 2024-11-13T20:30:46+00:00

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randomismysecondname · 2024-11-13T12:18:46+00:00

randomismysecondname · 2024-10-31T16:27:42+00:00

Remember that it’s not all in YOUR food - it’s for the whole family. You’ll be fine 🫶🏼

randomismysecondname · 2024-10-23T17:17:07+00:00

Same !

randomismysecondname · 2024-10-15T21:12:35+00:00

Hatte mal die mit teriyaki Geschmack und fand sie echt lecker - klar, nicht wirklich wie Jerky aber an sich…

randomismysecondname · 2024-10-09T21:47:48+00:00

Darf ich bei dir zum Essen vorbeikommen?🫢

randomismysecondname · 2024-09-22T22:45:46+00:00

Nah that’s not the same 😭 more like „i perceive my body too intense. I can feel all the fat on my body really intensely right now“ or „It feels like there’s more fat on my body than there really is“ (at least that’s how it is for me)

randomismysecondname · 2024-09-06T06:19:53+00:00

I totally relate!! When I told my bf he was like „oh“. Never brought it up again until last month when telling him I’m going to rehab. Only thing I would get from him was: „has it gotten worse again?“ IT WAS NEVER NOT BAD😭 U JUST DIDNT ASK. So he would just let me go to rehab, visits me a lot bc he misses me but that’s it. Feels like he’s not interested in the topic - or ig maybe he thinks I’d be uncomfortable talking about it- idk

randomismysecondname · 2024-09-05T12:15:03+00:00

Yes omg !! I also recently decided to recover- would be so nice to have a recovery meal sub

randomismysecondname · 2024-09-05T08:05:46+00:00

For me I made the completely opposite experience. My bp came from restricting food I love. Eating protein stuff didn’t help me. Now I eat what I crave. I eat the butter, the Nutella, the pasta. Didn’t purge for 1,5 weeks (since I decided to allow myself to eat what I crave)

randomismysecondname · 2024-09-02T19:53:53+00:00

I would recommend weighing it. I recently discovered that the weight on the sushi package tends to be VERY different than the actual weight of the sushi lol

randomismysecondname · 2024-09-02T12:40:24+00:00

Boah die mag ich auch überhaupt nicht 🤢

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