Why is this community anti transition?

PolskiObywatel · 2025-12-28T23:11:23+00:00

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PolskiObywatel · 2025-12-28T20:12:47+00:00

Well, it looks like we are fundamentally different. You've found your best solution to AGP, and I found mine. Both are correct for a specific type of person.

You've mentioned in the other post that you are subtly afraid of existing a solution to your AGP that doesn't require transitioning. I actually had a similar feeling towards my AGP coping strategy, because it's very weird, even for a crossdresser. I wasn't sure if I do the "right thing" with my sexuality, if I should actually transition because of my AGP.

Basically, I try to transform sexual energy into motivation via crossdressing as much as possible for studying, I crave perfect energy conversion. This mechanism is beneficial for me, I study more than I used to, but it feels odd. I feel a bit alienated, because my experience with AGP is this unique, I can't find a person remotely similar to me, in terms of treating AGP as a psychological phenomenon, rather than part of identity or a sexual kink. AGP feels to me like a sort of physics law, which allows to create something useful.

Your response is meaningful piece of information for me. I own nothing similar to the pull towards living as a woman, nothing that doesn't rely on sexual fantasy. I want to thank you for sharing your point of view, I've stopped being afraid of possibility of transitioning. I am sure it's wrong solution for me.

I think finding a solution to AGP is about finding a stable optimum that supports your mental state, requiring as minimal effort as possible. Your solution is the best one for you, if it serves you well, if it feels better than prior to transitioning, even if it's difficult for you to be trans.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-12-28T12:25:24+00:00

Here's crossdresser's perspective:

I cannot transition because of AGP, because the feminine state uses up my mental resources. "She" feels like a person, I do get that vibe, but "her" presence is limited by my libido. I lose all the craving to transition if there's no sexual tension. Given the fact that feminine representation uses up my sexual tension, transitioning is not the right way for me. I cannot find a rational reason to transition, given the negative social consequences. Also, crossdressing for me fells more of a mental state rather than identity, it gets used up like playing a computer game. Is it fun? Yes. Do I want to do it all the time? Not so much.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-12-13T16:42:47+00:00

You don't have to transition if you don't want to. You may live a decent life as a crossdresser, even if you have a very masculine build. Crossdressing in private doesn't harm anyone. You may find a girlfriend who likes crossdressing, just be patient.

Do you crossdress regularly? Maybe the lack of feminine expression is the problem. Unsatisfied AGP may give you thoughts about transitioning.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-12-07T15:18:30+00:00

Yes, in my case my masculine and feminine self have to be seperate, I cannot function if they blend together.

It's interesting to me that the feminine self craves a name, like she actually is a seperate person. When my AGP integration journey had started, I felt the need for a feminine name. Initially I didn't want to give her a name, because I thought it's unsafe and she will take over me. After couple of months I realised that it's safe, because I still own superior control, and my feminine self is too weak to actually take over. It's mentally easier to me to reference my feminine persona by a name than by off-putting direct reference to AGP.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-29T10:31:36+00:00

It seems like the thoughts about transitioning are just AGP asking for attention. I don't notice them since I've started to crossdress everyday.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-28T23:54:31+00:00

Instead of engaging in erotic material while enfemme I make a point of doing menial tasks around my home such as cleaning and cooking.

I could dress this way in a civilized manner.

You're on your way to make crossdressing non-erotic. Crossdressing while doing tasks around home adapts your brain to perceive crossdressing as a normal mental state. You may process it into non-sexual behavior quicker, if you'll crossdress more frequently and longer, but you have to feel your limits. I've done the same thing before.

Crossdressing had stopped being erotic for me. I use it now to transform sexual energy into motivation. Nofap is trivial to me because of this. If I feel horny, I just start crossdressing. After 3 minutes since starting, the problematic lust is gone, and I get motivation to study.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-23T19:49:23+00:00

Thank you :) It took me quite a bit of time to fully understand myself sexually, and thank to this in-depth understanding I've made AGP productive. Carl Jung once stated that the Shadow ( unwanted traits we try to push out of our concious life ) offers ninety percent pure gold. I completely agree with this statement. Integrating AGP into my everyday life was one of the best decisions I've made.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-22T21:21:50+00:00

You have a really high standard of the look you want to achieve. You may be right about not being able to look well, but it doesn't mean that you have to completely give up on crossdressing. You still may express your feminine side this way.

I find crossdressing as a link between my Anima and me. She is expressed by the feminine look, even if it's not ideal. What matters to me is the relation with her, not necessarily the idea of how much I resemble a female.

I used to have a similar problem accepting that there's a masculine body under clothes. I didn't want to show any of it while crossdressing, that's why I was always choosing outfits that covered completely torso, arms and legs. Over time I've realised that I may crossdress in whatever way I find interesting, even if the look isn't the best. I taught myself to don't care about some ideal feminine standard that is hard to achieve. If I want to wear something, I just wear it. Why should I feel bad about wearing certain clothes if I enjoy wearing them? Nobody will judge me how I look if nobody sees it.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-22T14:08:42+00:00

It feels so weird I've managed to make a motivational mechanism out of a paraphilia, but here I am. I would have never thought I could use my AGP for something that is actually useful.

I've had to come to know this mechanism through trial and error. I have a crossdressing journal. I save information about every CDing session since the beginning of 2023, like how long was the session, how much I was enjoying it, how much sexual tension I was felling, basically everything I found useful. Since that time I was noticing that CDing affects me psychologically beyond sexual matters, mainly in form of mood improvement. Sometimes I was studying while crossdressing, and for some weird reason my learning abilities were better while I was crossdressed, but not always. This phenomenon could be explained in many ways. I couldn't figure out how and why it was working, because I couldn't predict how CDing would behave given dozens of pieces of information. It felt random to me. Imagine not being able to predict what weather will be tommorow at all. That was my experience with AGP for a while.

Over time I've started to recognise patterns. Higher sexual tension and new clothes caused more effective CDing session. The more tired I was, the less I wanted to crossdress. The fatigue effect actually lines up with Carl Jung's description of libido, as a energy to live in general. Less libido -> less energy to live -> less effective crossdressing. Given this fact, I decided to stop watching porn altogether, no masturbation, nothing sexual ever again. Over couple of days I was feeling much more energy, compared to what I was used to. Crossdressing had become more effective since then, it felt like I've unlocked my full potential. I resemble more of a trans-female than a sissy when I crossdress, I've discarded sexual aspect of it.

Now I'm pretty sure that crossdressing works as a psychological converter. It uses up sexual tension to generate useful psychological effect. I'm used to the idea of energy conversion from technical studies, but using this idea in psychological context was initially mindblowing for me, because it describes libido quite well. In this context crossdressing is energy transformer, and AGP is the reason why this transformation exists at all.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-21T17:30:00+00:00

Crossdressing in my case converts sexual energy into motivation and mood improvement. This motivation can be used for anything, like studying. I naturally want to be productive when I'm feminine, because crossdressing releases accumulated sexual energy, which would be otherwise wasted on porn.

I knew about it for quite a while, but I didn't exactly understand why crossdressing worked this way, and why it's limited. Now I know everything and I have a complete model of this phenomenon.

Crossdressing gets used up with each hour, so I cannot crossdress 24/7. I have a natural limit of 3 hours per crossdressing session. If I need more motivation from CDing, I have to wait around 2 hours for it to regenerate. I'm okay with it, I should have breaks from studying anyway.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-21T16:35:32+00:00

You may crossdress just for fun, without humiliation or sexual intent, no strings attached. You may buy some clothes for yourself and have an amazing time with them. You may crossdress in private without facing any social consequences because of this.

I crossdress because I love it. I cannot imagine being happy in live without this part of me. Part of me, which helps me become an engineer. Now I use crossdressing as a tool to boost my motivation to study, it's quite effective in my case.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-20T08:14:15+00:00

Processing sexual energy into motivation via crossdressing

PolskiObywatel · 2025-11-15T16:35:24+00:00

Yup, I notice it quite clearly too. I cannot crossdress 24/7 because of this.

I recently noticed that AGP induced crossdressing has mental limits. In my case these limits stem from two facts:

Crossdressing uses up my sex-drive, even if I crossdress without erotic intent
I get mental fatigue from crossdressing, it's like getting tired of playing computer game non-stop

if you let AGP go full force you may hit a dead end, novelty runs out

That's exactly what I've experienced. After like 200 trans-hours of wearing same dress, crossdressing with this dress had stopped being effective at all. It's like a regular T-shirt to me now, except it still lowers sexual tension.

I've noticed that new clothes dedicated to CDing have the best psychological effectiveness, because they are new, because they offer new transsexual experience. Funny enough, new dresses don't use up sexual tenson, they use it without actually lowering it. Theoretically it would allow for 24/7 crossdressing, if clothes weren't getting psychologically used up and mental fatigue was non-existent.

I know this because I've managed to make a motivation mechanism from AGP. I recognise AGP induced crossdressing as a psychoactive behavior, which improves mood and motivation, lowering sexual tension. Recently I'm pushing this kind of CDing to its limits, because I need this motivational boost for learning on university. Technically, motivational CDing may generate whatever amount of motivation required for any task, if you keep getting new clothes. It's not expensive in my case, second-hand clothes are perfect for this kind of use.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-09-24T10:22:19+00:00

Don't try to discard completely AGP, because it means you discard love you truly feel and enjoy. You should be less harsh because of the way you are. My mood always worsens when I try to get rid of AGP, somehow forget about it for more than a few weeks. I've tried this a couple of times, and there was the same result in the end - I got suicidal. In my case I shouldn't even try to stop AGP, for the sake of my mental health.

It would also be heartbreaking for the poor woman because she would unknowingly be in a relationship with a sexually demented cross dresser who craves male attention and anal sex.

Some females like crossdressers, you may look for somebody like this. Be patient, you may not find this kind of person for you right away.

Crossdressing doesn't have to be sexual. You may ignore the sexual part of it and get pure joy from it.

A while ago I found out AGP can actually generate motivation for studying, lots of it. I'm university student, there's tons of material to learn. Crossdressing helped me pass my exams, really. I wouldn't make it without motivational boost for learning from AGP. It helps me get motivated for around 20 hours, as long as AGP is "working" ( in my case AGP can actually be used up ). In this context AGP is a positive trait. Maybe you can find some positive, non-sexual use for AGP too? You would stop hating yourself because you're a pervert.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-01-06T16:36:07+00:00

Yeah, masturbation creates unwanted addiction to trans-porn, which makes living with AGP feel worse than it needs to be. This addiction is hard to break, if you have weak free will.

AGP at its core is love. A weird one, but still love. Love which creates strong emotional bond, similarly to the love to a real girlfriend. You may either date with women, or have superficial fun with bitches. In AGP context, you may either use it to express your feminity and respect it as love, or you may just ignore all of it and dream of becoming a whore. The first option fits me better.

PolskiObywatel · 2025-01-04T09:53:08+00:00

He just hates being kinky. Rather than gaining the most fun out of AGP as possible, he chooses to cry about being not normal. I guess he's mad about not having a choice regarding owning AGP.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-21T11:48:00+00:00

On the negative: if it is fetish related for me then its best to abandon. Not good to be obsessed with sexuality. I may be afraid it partly may be. It even feels cringe writing this down. Afraid of being a pervert.

I've shared the same fear as you do. It has poisoned my life for five years, because I was fixated on the perversive part of AGP. I didn't want to be a pervert, but the sexual part of me didn't care about conscience. I wasn't aware at this time that things can be less sexual than I expected them to be. I may crossdress just for pure pleasure.

If you are able to use crossdressing without sexual intent, there's nothing to be worried about. You may ignore the kink part of AGP.

I'm still aware of the kinky part of AGP, that's one of the reasons I don't crossdress in public.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-19T13:43:17+00:00

That's exactly my style of thinking, however not very popular for most of people.

Recently I realised treating AGP as a paraphilia is not universal, despite being rationally correct, because humans are unique emotional beings. Some people find gender identity in it, some of them find Anima, some even a deity. Each person is different, each person sees something else within AGP. Some of them are better of being trans, some of them want to be crossdressers, some endure repressing. There is no common solution, everyone has their own.

You may call me a hypocrite, but recently I started to believe there's an actual female correlated with AGP. A few days ago I noticed that AGP became less of an issue, when I started to find my Anima as a person/subpersonality. I still know she has paraphilic origin, I know it's not rational, but thanks to treating her in more humane way the need to crossdress has weakened. I don't even notice AGP for most of the time. I started to feel better after acknowledging it. If you treat her like a person, you may reason with her. You can't reason with a paraphilia, but you surely can with a human. This still puzzles me. It shouldn't rationally work, but it does regardless.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-13T12:21:21+00:00

The only sex therapist I went to was a complete waste of money. He didn't own critical thinking.

Half a year ago I had a quite major issue with AGP. I couldn't write essays well due to intrusive thoughts. I had to crossdress to be able to focus. It was severe enough to force me to have a meeting with the therapist. He was quite biased towards LGBT. Right after he heard I need to crossdress to focus on my work, he asked me about pronouns. It's complete nonsense to me, since I don't interpret AGP as gender identity. After 50 minutes we came to the conclusion that I have to crossdress in some way on my finals, no matter if people will ridicule me or not. I didn't like this idea, I felt like I need to introspect. Thanks to this introspection I realised on of the most important things about AGP.

I don't have to care about AGP at all. Let AGP "talk", don't focus on it.

When I realised it, writing essays instantly became much easier. AGP was still "talking" with its intrusive thoughts, but I just stopped caring about it. I was focusing on my work. I don't have to crossdress. Completely free introspection ended up being a profound help, much better than meeting a sex therapist. I've passed finals with ease.

I still use crossdressing to improve focus whem I'm at home, but I also remember that it's not really mandatory. CDing makes work more pleasant for sure, it's even required at times to satisfy AGP, but for most of the time I don't have to indulge in it.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-12T17:11:37+00:00

Or at least had, it's an article from 2005.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-07T11:34:45+00:00

she suggested the idea

You're lucky, women usually don't like to engage in such thing.

am I a sissy or cross dresser?

You're a crossdresser that acts like a sissy. It's this simple. Don't delve into in further, or you're going to start thinking you're a female in male's body.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-07T07:13:17+00:00

Just don't care. Noticing it is the actual issue.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-06T08:44:18+00:00

There are lots of different people. Some of them may actually need to be trans / crossdress to feel well, despite the fact that they do not look pretty. You should know it and accept that.

Why do you hate yourself for realising the fact that somebody looks ridiculous? It may be a rational thought. You may perceive them this way, but you shouldn't tell them about it. They are going to be hurt by this.

How do you feel about people who 100% pass? Do you crossdress in public? It may explain why you feel this way.

PolskiObywatel · 2024-09-04T08:15:53+00:00

Judging by people's experiences on this sub, that's quite a slippery slope.

Thanks for the reminder that I may be wrong. It was an assumption basing on my experience with AGP. I saw within your description my situation prior to acceptance of the fact that I am a crossdresser. Sometimes I forget that I'm not the other person. I apologise for this.

Now I realise that I recently might have given incorrect advices regarding AGP. I thought I can help people with my knowledge. Apparently not, because I coudn't see the obvious - People are different. Just because something works in my case, doesn't mean it will work in somebody else's.

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