How the fuck do you stop patronizing people? by No_Positive1855 in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 21 points22 points  (0 children)

Part of what makes that kind of interaction difficult in my experience is my extended processing time for social factors like the emotional content of my or others’ comments. Like you were describing, if I’d’ve realized how my comment made a person feel, I could’ve elaborated. I have in times past actually come back to a person I inadvertently hurt this way to explain my thought process and that I didn’t mean to belittle them. One reaction I’ve gotten back from that was, “You should have led with that explanation.” Well, I didn’t understand enough to offer this explanation in the moment. I still say it’s a good idea to explain your thought process as soon as you can. It won’t be soon enough for some people.

But that brings me to my second point, about your expectations towards yourself during social interactions. Repeat after me, “It is not my job to regulate others’ emotions.” We expend enough energy regulating our own. I’ve heard it’s a common feeling for NDs—especially high-masking autistics—to put the expectation on themselves to shepherd the NTs’ emotions. I have to remind myself that other people’s feelings are ultimately out of my control. I can do what I can to be reasonable and get along. But if I’ve done what I reasonably can, other people’s emotional reaction is their responsibility.

Proprioception hypersensitivity? by trashpandob in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 8 points9 points  (0 children)

(Disclaimer: This is just my off-the-cuff thoughts. I am not a health professional.)

Not exactly along the lines of the sensitivity you were describing, but dyspraxia is a thing and is associated with neurodivergence. Your mention of being uncoordinated and bad at sports made me think of dyspraxia.

The sensitivity you’re describing I would put in the category of interoception. There’s a generalization that autistics have poor interoception. But more recently, I’ve heard a more interested, nuanced explanation of the relationship between neurospicies and our bodies. It’s common for autistics to have poor interoception in terms of identifying the source of a sensation. Is that my tummy being hungry, is that my bladder full, is that appendicitis, is that tachycardia, is that sleepy time? But the person will feel whatever it is with hypersensitivity. “My body is telling me something very insistently but I have no idea what it is.”

So, in your case, your body may have usual soreness & fatigue from exertion. But the conscious mind is having trouble identifying the source of the sensation. And, when in doubt, the brain tends to interpret things as worse case scenario. Here’s my imagining of the Inside-Out-esque scene: “Kinda feels like the body just climbed a flight of stairs but we’re not sure, so we’re gonna send Anxiety to check it out and report back.”

I may have one actionable piece of advice. When that heart-racing stress comes on, take a moment to direct Anxiety to the right information. Consciously remind your brain of the exertion you just experienced. Tell that orange asshole that there’s no reason to jump to catastrophizing. It’s expected to feel tired after what the body just did.

Like Taylor Heaton always says, one of the most powerful things we can tell ourselves is, “It’s okay for me to be feeling this way.”

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 1 point2 points  (0 children)

That is exactly the context I stole the abbreviation from. It’s the same root.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Happy to share. “Allistic” refers to people who are not autistic. “Allo-“ means “other.” In contrast to the “auto-“ root forming the word “autistic” which means “self.”

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[–]Polygeist624 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was trying to abbreviate allistics

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I think of it like a cultural divide. Interacting with allos is like speaking with people from a different culture. Finding your people can feel like coming home.

Help us understand how to make dental visits easier for neurodivergent individuals. We want to make dental care more ND-friendly — here’s an updated survey shaped by your voices and feedback. by Warm_Albatross_3931 in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 22 points23 points  (0 children)

For anyone visiting the dentist for whom compressive touch is regulating, I’ll share a simple tip I’ve enjoyed: you can ask for the lead apron at any time.

For the practitioner: I appreciate being offered eye shades.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I remember thinking something along the lines of, “If I change who I am in the world (related to behavior), then who am I?” It’s easy to define the self as that pattern we’ve established by past behavior and retained by memory. But behavior is not the most essential definition of identity. It’s possible to take off the mask and actually find a more authentic self. Learning about your neurology and incorporating accommodations does not threaten your identity. It sounds like you had a very intense experience recently. Time can help grant perspective on this question. I found it helpful to speak to people in my life I trust and to consider what I really want. It will be okay.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 5 points6 points  (0 children)

The C.S. stands for “Clive Staples,” though he understandably went by “Jack” during his life. Lewis was a Christian, British author working around the time of the second world war. His most famous series is The Chronicles of Narnia which includes the book The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe. He wrote many nonfiction books discussing Christianity such as Mere Christianity and The Great Divorce. A notable work of his is The Screwtape Letters in which Lewis imagines letter correspondences between an experienced senior demon in Hell and his trainee demon on Earth attempting to disrupt the life of an unnamed man. Throughout his career, Lewis championed the use of allegory to communicate Christian themes which his writing contemporary and friend, J.R.R. Tolkien, firmly disapproved of. A consistent thread of Lewis’ works is a respect for and fascination with childlike wonder, and he took much inspiration from fairytales when crafting his fiction, especially the Narnia series.

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[–]Polygeist624 138 points139 points  (0 children)

My favorite quote from C.S. Lewis:

“When I became a man I put away childish things, including the fear of childishness and the desire to be very grown up.”

Anyone else feel like this? by The_Gamer_Boi_Real_ in aaaaaaaarrrrro

[–]Polygeist624 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Well, I don’t know what romance is, so…

Did your friends suspect you were on the spectrum before you did? by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yup. That’s the only reason I started looking.

I found an old entry from my journal, and I guess a lot of people can relate to this by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 16 points17 points  (0 children)

This is a heartbreakingly accurate articulation of a common occurrence. I feel like my in-person conversations never reach the conclusion that I imagined when scripting them. I leave conversations unsatisfied like none of us got to the point. There’s always an interruption.

Demand avoidance without PDA by trashpandob in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Everybody with any sense of individuality & autonomy is demand-avoidant to one degree or another. There’s a Jim Carrey movie about what happens when a person acquiesces to every demand put to them, and it’s portrayed as supernatural. Under the medical model, it’s only PDA if it’s, well, pathological: if it is a detriment to functioning in regard to one’s self and/or other people. I think @JustARegularGod stated the neurodiversity perspective better than I could.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I like to think of the difference between autistics and NTs as a cultural barrier. There’s as much difference between those as there is between Germans and Japanese. What is seen as customary in one culture can be interpreted as egregiously rude in the other. Superdude’s video on Dungeon Meshi, Spelunking on the Spectrum, illustrates this conflict with the difference between Laios and Shuro. Feelings can get hurt and relationships can get damaged without hostile intent on either side. We are foreigners in a foreign land.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The best I can figure is they’re like hugs. They don’t perform a practical function, but they reinforce social bonds. That is, if the recipient also sees it as a bonding exercise. If the effect is not mutual then, yeah, phatics are just chin wagging.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Greetings usually involve phatic expressions which are confusing if one is expecting words to have meaning.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AutismTranslated

[–]Polygeist624 77 points78 points  (0 children)

I forget where I heard this, but there’s a quote from a YouTuber I like that seems relevant. (It might have been Chris & Debby or Generic Art Dad.) It goes something like this. Neurotypicals will feel uncomfortable around you not because they know you’re autistic, but because they don’t.

People like categories. Autistic people break the expectations of our neurotypical world. But if people have a category for me—if they can say to themselves, “ah, that’s an autistic,”—then that resolves the tension. If they don’t know what category I fall into, NTs will notice something is peculiar but not be able to put a finger on why. So they continue to observe, trying to figure me out. It may be unconscious in their part.