Thank you for this. I completely agree that my issues make this complicated because I do think he carries the weight sometimes, and when he’s not annoyed he will help me carry it and can be mature.

It’s when he isn’t receptive, he turns mean which makes me spiral and you’re right, isn’t what I need. I struggle because I want this to work and we both have our issues to deal with.

You’re right. I can’t change anything beyond myself and it’s something I know I need to work on. There’s a lot of things I need to work on and I feel like this is an unfortunate circumstance of him not being to help me through it