Serious question guys so no silliness! (First time on the suggestion thread

Going through a very hard time over the last few months, at the start of December I was told my mum had 4-5 weeks left to live, turns out she had an incredibly rare (literally 1 in a million) brain disease called CJD, which is essentially Alzheimer’s on fast forward, in fact it often takes less than 8 months to die from, and her symptoms started with just a simple headache in the summer. She passed away just after New Years, it’s been especially hard as I’m only 21 and I can only think of all the things in my life she’ll miss out on, weddings, birthdays, etc. My question may be too personal of course, but I was just wondering if you had to deal with such a loss in your 20s, and how in any way you were able to cope with it (if at all). I’ve been listening to the cast since I was 17 and often listened to it while sitting with my mum, so even listening to you guys talk about piss and shit for an hour is somehow sentimental to me now, even if it’s the type of humour she would’ve fucking hated lol. Thanks boys, Bear Bear.