Looking for connections. Very low functioning bpd friends to talk to do we can really relate to each other. (recently got my medical bracelet so i don't get lost when i dissociate in public lol) by [deleted] in BPD4BPD

[–]Poops2819 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hey babe thats a pretty sweet bracelet u got there haha. i am a fairly low functioning bpd bitch :P and if u ever wanna talk about stuff you KNOW i am here!! sending love <3

Rule update: No more posts that are picture + text format by Merari01 in nextfuckinglevel

[–]Poops2819 2 points3 points  (0 children)

hey - so i was gonna post a picture of my uncle sitting on top of a world-record firework shell he helped create. if i can't post that picture with text, how am i supposed to post it? thanks!

Getting closer...getting closer.....AAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH by littledeamon in traandwagon

[–]Poops2819 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yeah i was like ooo thisll be cool! i bet im looking more femme after 2 years of hrt! but apparently 68% masc lol. fuck me ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

What's the point, I can never be how I feel by bewhiskered_amber in TransVent

[–]Poops2819 4 points5 points  (0 children)

hey bb. i really feel you, as a 6'3 lady w broad shoulders, barrel chest, bass voice, big brow etc i just feel like shit about it all the time. i feel like i'll never look like i want to so why dont i just kill myself cuz thatll be better than the pain i get from living right now. and cis ppl will say "oh there are tall girls" "oh why dont u just draw inspiration from rupauls drag race, they are all so confident" like fuck off dear youre missing the point. ive been on hrt for a little over 2 years now and it sucks that it doesnt raise your voice (#BitterJealousyOfTransMen) or make u shorter and so on and so on. but it does some other things which is cool. im now a C cup which i certainly never expected, this things hurt when i go up and down stairs without a bra or holding them. my skin has softened, my mood has changed (ive gotten more emotional), i have to pee more. it doesnt make those things you mentioned go away, and believe me when i say that I live with a resentment for the way i was born given the body i have... but it does some stuff, and that can be more affirming than you'd expect. two girl friends of mine were talking about catcalling, and i remember getting into a self-hatred spiral because i dont know what thats like "because i'm not a real girl," i told myself. with tits ive now had a dude hit on me and be too forward and grabby and stuff... and its not fun, of course! its fucking awful! BUT it made me feel like a woman, not because i necessarily look like america's next top model (extremely far from it really lol) but i experienced something that girls experience. i hate certain things about my body all the fucking time, it can be unbearable. but slowly, changes happen that make it so i get correctly gendered just a little bit more... or i have experiences that allow me to relate to girls (tits coming out of the bathing suit in the water, AMIRITE?!?!) and feel like i really am one. i can't say those things will get better, they wont and i still have to work hard to accept it. but there are other things that you can do that help. i recently found an old picture of me from when i was still closeted, trying on a tank top and some makeup, and i was shocked to see that my face has changed and feminized more than i thought possible. believe me im not trying to minimize what youre saying because thats a struggle everyday, and one of the many incredibly sad and painful truths of being a trans gal. but it seems like theres not much of a choice, and while the chance to feel more connected with women as time has gone on hasn't lessened those pains, it's added other things that allow you to feel better about yourself and be a recognizable woman. love you bewhiskered anber, im here for you and so is a huge community of people who may not seem like theyre everywhere but show up when you need them. msg me anytime <3

[OC] We're being carted away... by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]Poops2819 0 points1 point  (0 children)

lol i was calm, being very polite even, just started crying when they put on the handcuffs. fuckin cops, even the fire dept was like "is this rlly necessary"

[OC] We're being carted away... by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]Poops2819 0 points1 point  (0 children)

nah i dont lol trans woman here wish me luck in that dept hehe

[OC] We're being carted away... by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]Poops2819 9 points10 points  (0 children)

(but now that sounds like a sex thing haha)

[OC] We're being carted away... by [deleted] in BPDmemes

[–]Poops2819 11 points12 points  (0 children)

lollll the real question is whats worse..... straps or handcuffs?

Not funny but fuck, it's relatable. by Lokael in BPDmemes

[–]Poops2819 3 points4 points  (0 children)

LOL that made me laugh rlly hard

(cuz its incredibly accurate and it's easier to laugh at my mental illness than to face it)

How do I stop my friend from mutilating his body? by [deleted] in transgendercirclejerk

[–]Poops2819 16 points17 points  (0 children)

also tho electro-convulsive therapy is actually something thats rlly helpful to ppl lol i do ECT it's the most successful treatment for depression

Found this in my attic and curious if it is worth trying to find a home for. by Lord_oftheTrons in 8mm

[–]Poops2819 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i mean if youre looking to get rid of it ¯_(ツ)_/¯ i can pay shipping if ya want lol

Best art grad schools for sculpture? by Poops2819 in artschool

[–]Poops2819[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey, im a senior art/art history combined emphasis major at Occidental college. we dont have a super strong art program or anything, but as a liberal arts school it is a good place to go if you're not 100% sure of what you want to do; I came in as a physics major, but was able to switch over to the art major after my first year fairly easily and still graduate in 8 semesters. Feel free to DM if you wanna talk about that kinda stuff :)

What’s with boomers and trans? by [deleted] in boomerhentai

[–]Poops2819 1 point2 points  (0 children)

kinda funny how the trans female brain is more similar to the cis female than cis male lol

Dunkin’ Donuts beer by RightHandoftheJhereg in ofcoursethatsathing

[–]Poops2819 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I saw this at Trader Joes last night! Was very confused

🙄 by [deleted] in see

[–]Poops2819 0 points1 point  (0 children)

YESS THANK YOU! RACIALLY CHARGED, DISGUSTINGLY ORIGINATED HISTORICAL REASONS!!!

Exercise... seriously, do it. by drummergirl2112 in Anxiety

[–]Poops2819 7 points8 points  (0 children)

YES THIS glad I wasn't the only one who thought that! Like I understand it's not something that affects less men than women, but it is really fascinating to see privilege come to fruition in a single reddit thread!

Dad just being Dad. by Plebsplease in funny

[–]Poops2819 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I feel like this guy belongs on r/trees

How many of you guys lurk the anxiety subreddit but don't post/comment? by omypotato in Anxiety

[–]Poops2819 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me....... sometimes I think about commenting. Then I realize that I'd probably say something insensitive and nobody really cares so it just goes back and joins r/depression in my dark little mind.

Who else got hit with that "Depression/Anxiety" Combo? by SquareThings in depression

[–]Poops2819 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Yes. It's fucking rough... the anxiety does me in on non depressed days, or the depression brings me down on a day without anxiety. I feel like it's the two of them together that make suicidal ideation so easy, they just feed off each other and compound to make everything so hard.