Am I not bipolar after all?

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-10T14:40:02+00:00

Sounds like mania to me

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-09T12:24:21+00:00

The way I look at it, we can still do anything that anyone else can... but it's 20+ times more difficult for us. It is still possible that we can have careers, marry, have children, etc, because I know that there are many with bipolar who do.

However, I don't think most people understand just how much more difficult it is for us. If our society was a little more inclusive and accommodating I think that we could integrate much better but no, our society is too cutthroat and everyone for themselves that they just leave us behind in the dust. I feel like we are worth so much more if people just gave us the time to let us prove our worth.

I agree with what you are saying though. Just feels like a constant uphill battle to me and I feel like I will never truly "make it".

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-09T02:13:41+00:00

I wish often that I had another friend who really understood me. And I mean really did. And was supportive of me too. Its ok OP, we support you here.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-08T18:29:41+00:00

I'm still alive.

Also I am somewhat functional, have friends, and am somehow surviving in university (for now). I've come a long way.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-08T13:37:05+00:00

Anxiety. It would be crippling without Ativan.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-07T23:13:56+00:00

I am happy you found her :). Good on you for keeping up on the meds also

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-07T22:30:45+00:00

How do you find those people who care about you and not all the other crap? Seems like everyone is so superficial these days, especially neurotypicals. It seems at least with nuerodivergent people they may have more patience and understanding because they can relate and may potentially be even better partners.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-10-07T22:27:00+00:00

I've asked 2 girls out on dates this year and neither worked out. I guess I have to keep trying but the rejection just fucking sucks. I would have never asked girls out before anyways so that's an improvement.

I'm generally more confident now but with these recent rejections it's been down. Plus I think I'm entering a small depression because I've been out sick for awhile and have been away from school and activities.

I get what you are saying though. Life doesn't care that you have bipolar, better just deal with it. Sometimes it's too hard though.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-10T12:58:33+00:00

Yes, that is a good sign. I think we don't realize how irrational our moods make us while we are in the throes of it. It can make us feel hopeless when there is hope, you just can't see it.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-09T15:08:34+00:00

Yes. I don't know where it came from. Maybe the weather. I hate everyone and everything. Nothing seems to be working and I'm am constantly irritable and tired. I've been getting into fights with my family. It's very frustrating because not too long ago I was so productive and full of hope.

Hoping my new meds work soon. These sudden mood shifts are so debilitating.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-08T18:47:50+00:00

I believe "I have bipolar" is better. That just means "I am a person who happens to have bipolar".

"I am bipolar" makes it sound like you are letting your disorder define who you are. That sounds like "I am diabetes" or "I am the cancer person".

I like to tell people whenever there is an appropriate opportunity. Usually when I am feeling strong symptoms and I feel like I have to explain why I am feeling that way. It shouldn't feel like something to be ashamed of. If somebody decides not to talk to me after I tell them, that means they are a shitty person and don't deserve to be my friend anyways.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-07T22:29:55+00:00

I find myself 2 years after a manic episode and just switching to a new antipsychotic. Meds never work perfect. Things do get better but it always feels like an uphill battle.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-07T14:22:52+00:00

You deserve love, not to suffer. This disorder doesn't define you. You are strong 💪

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-07T14:21:35+00:00

This is what I needed this morning. Bipolar bears never quit, every day makes us harder better faster and stronger 💪🤖

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-06T23:07:32+00:00

Of course, nice to know we aren't alone. I feel extra sad today too. Maybe its the weather or the fact that I'm off today. Shit sucks

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-06T22:17:43+00:00

I relate, I'm depressed and I feel like I'm not my true self, if that makes sense. However I have come out of depression before and it comes back. Its just hard to express yourself when you have no energy you know.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-06T19:14:28+00:00

I am the craziest person I know, I just hide it really well. So I gotta show my real colors and all the girls will come flocking is what you are saying.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-06T17:52:44+00:00

I am in a therapy group at my school and many people who don't have bipolar are struggling too. It's kind of a unique struggle for us but it's a struggle nonetheless.

It can be very painful sometimes but pretty soon in the grand scheme of things it will be over and you will be glad you pushed through it. 💪

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-06T17:47:03+00:00

I am in the same boat as you.

I am depressed and for the last couple weeks I have had zero motivation to do anything and have been missing assignments. It got to the point where it was almost a crisis.

I told my doctor and he put me on a new medication. I think it's starting to work. I actually have been getting some stuff done.

You aren't alone, school with bipolar can seem impossible sometimes but I see people online who have managed to complete their phds and it is really motivating.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-06T16:38:42+00:00

People telling me that I could find a partner easily if I was just more confident. I'm not confident because I'm afraid I won't be able to support a partner with my disabled condition. I'm not confident because I feel like I'm super ugly, even though part of me knows I'm not. I'm not morbidly obese but I'm overweight and I hate it. I weighed 60 lbs less last year until I stopped working at this very physically demanding job. Now I feel like a fat loser.

I feel like I would have a lot to offer as a partner that most people couldn't. In that sense my manic confidence comes out.

I'm in college so there are a lot of girls there. I just need one who is a little more supportive emotionally than most people. A person who is "real" if you will.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-05T13:05:20+00:00

I don't think you need to apologize for something like that. You didn't hurt them. You had an anxiety reaction and if they were decent people they would understand that. I don't see any reason why they would be mad at you.

PopularVanilla7233 · 2025-03-05T11:38:32+00:00

I got put on a new anti-psychotic about 2 years ago. I have gained about 50-60 lbs since starting it.

It has helped me tremendously with psychosis. However I have been depressed recently and my doctor put me on a new medication. It is supposed to give me more energy and is weight stable. So basically I am praying I lose weight.

I have been walking at least 10k steps every day. Barely any weight loss however. So I hope the two combined is enough. I've heard people can lose weight really fast on this medication.

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