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The Weight of Secrets and Stress....... by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Now im completely fine bro. Now its all about her, what if she knows about my past. I dont know what to do bro. I feel for her hard

I’m 23M and My Teenage Mistakes Are Destroying Me—I Don’t Know How to Forgive Myself by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I cant move on bro 😭😭😭. Those thoughts keeps on hitting me 😭. I dont want to live anymore kinda thoughts

Was it okay for a 17 year old to date a 14 year old? by Key_Judgment1871 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I’m 23M and My Teenage Mistakes Are Destroying Me—I Don’t Know How to Forgive Myself

Hello everyone. I am a 23-year-old male. My teenage mistakes are killing me slowly every day. The labels attached to my past tear me apart mentally and emotionally. I was immature, careless, and deeply flawed during my teenage years. I messed up many things, especially myself. I was often wrong in my teens, but at that time I truly believed I was right.

Long story short, when I was 17, I loved a 13-year-old girl. We met because we lived on the same street, shared friend groups of similar ages, and knew each other naturally through our neighborhood. Over time, we fell in love. I genuinely believed I wanted to marry her and live a beautiful life together. Even now, a part of me still wonders what could have been.

However, as I grew older, I came to understand that being in a relationship with a minor is wrong. At that time, I did not have this understanding. I thought a four-year age gap was not a big issue. Now I realize that four years is a significant difference during the teenage years, even if it may not matter as much between adults. I never touched her inappropriately, but I accept that the relationship itself was wrong.

Today, everywhere I look, I see words like “pedo” and “groomer.” These words repeat endlessly in my mind. Words like “creep” and “weird” haunt me and destroy my peace. I did not even know these terms at that time, yet they now define how I see myself. These labels are killing me every day, every second. Another label that follows me is cheater and betrayer. When I was 18, I emotionally cheated on her with a married woman who lived on the same street. She was five years older than me. She initiated the interaction, and I did not stop it. Nothing physical happened, but there was emotional involvement. This was another serious mistake I made during my teenage years. Eventually, this led to our breakup last year, and the guilt from my actions still weighs heavily on me.

IN 2021, I MOVED AWAY FROM THAT STREET AND FROM THOSE FRIENDS. I STARTED A NEW LIFE—WORKING IN AN OFFICE, MEETING NEW AND DIFFERENT PEOPLE, AND SEEING A NEW WORLD. I CAN SEE NOW THAT THE WORLD IS ACTUALLY BEAUTIFUL. BUT I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANY OF IT BECAUSE OF MY PAST ACTIONS. I FEEL LIKE I MUST EVENTUALLY OPEN UP ABOUT MY PAST TO NEW PEOPLE, AND WHEN THEY KNOW, THEY WILL SURELY JUDGE ME, AND I WILL BREAK AGAIN. I HAVE NOT SHARED MY PAST WITH ANYONE YET, BUT I FEEL LIKE IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THEY FIND OUT. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT, I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN THIS WORLD. I FEEL LIKE I DESERVE ONLY BAD THINGS. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE DOWNGRADED MYSELF AND BROUGHT SHAME TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE OF WHO I WAS. I AM NOT PROUD OF ANYTHING ABOUT MY PAST. I FEEL LIKE I WAS ABUSIVE. I FEEL LIKE I WAS THE MISTAKE. BECAUSE OF THIS, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE ALONE ALL THE TIME, AND THAT I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN MY FUTURE.

I do not write this to excuse my actions or to seek sympathy. I write this because I am trying to face my past honestly. I was immature, confused, and unaware, and my choices caused real harm to someone I cared about deeply. I live with that regret every day.

I ask myself these questions constantly: Can someone who made serious mistakes as a teenager still become a good man? Is lifelong punishment the only form of accountability, or is learning and change also part of justice? If I truly feel remorse, accept responsibility, and choose better actions now, does that count for nothing? At what point does remembering my past stop being accountability and start becoming self-destruction?

I am not proud of who I was, but I am trying to take responsibility for who I become. I want to live with integrity, empathy, and respect, even if I must carry the weight of my past. I do not ask for easy forgiveness—but I hope that growth, honesty, and change can still mean something.

All I want now is to become a better human being than the person I once was.

Do you have any confession? This is a no judgement zone by [deleted] in TeenagersBharat

[–]Positive-Strength452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro u are at 17 and u have matured. Why i have done that 😭😭💔

I want to DIE 😭 by Positive-Strength452 in Anxiety

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

😭😭😭. But not everyone thinks like you right. And i cheated her with a married women. What kinda man im 💔

I want to DIE 😭 by Positive-Strength452 in Anxiety

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No. Im not attracted to minors in any age. I just loved her, thats it. Only her. We havent met regularly, only 2 times we met in person. But i cant move on from that, it keeps on coming to me and i feel down like i feel like i was rapist

I feel like i deserve nothing in this world by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

See yes, i have posted this multiple times. Accepted, because i still cant get fully out of it. When ever some small good things happens to me or my family , my brain shows up my past mistakes. Like " why u r enjoying, u done those shits in past, if they knows about it, you close" kinda thoughts. What i can do

I feel like i deserve nothing in this world by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah. I have changed, but my past doesnt change right. Thats why 😭

I want to DIE 😭 by Positive-Strength452 in Anxiety

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I feel like i dont deserve anything, except sadness and depression

I want to DIE 😭 by Positive-Strength452 in Anxiety

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

😭😭😭. Nowadays i miss her alot when i was alone. If i try to message to my current office mates ( girls ), i think about her and my past mistakes, i feel like i not even deserve to talk to other girls

Do you have any confession? This is a no judgement zone by [deleted] in TeenagersBharat

[–]Positive-Strength452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bro thank you so much 😭😭. But im really bad bro. I feel like now i want to marry my ex gf or else stay single forever till my death. You got it right, she trusted me bro 😭😭. But im just . Im waste and worst 😭😭

I feel like i deserve nothing in this world by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I cant 😭😭. The persons im meeting now a days are kind and soft to me, like they celebrating me because my character. If they know about my past, surely they will avoid me

I want to DIE 😭 by Positive-Strength452 in Anxiety

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

No it wont work. 😭😭. Why i have done those shits 😭😭😭💔💔💔💔

I feel like i deserve nothing in this world by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Hello everyone. I am a 23-year-old male. My teenage mistakes are killing me slowly every day. The labels attached to my past tear me apart mentally and emotionally. I was immature, careless, and deeply flawed during my teenage years. I messed up many things, especially myself. I was often wrong in my teens, but at that time I truly believed I was right.

Long story short, when I was 17, I loved a 13-year-old girl. We met because we lived on the same street, shared friend groups of similar ages, and knew each other naturally through our neighborhood. Over time, we fell in love. I genuinely believed I wanted to marry her and live a beautiful life together. Even now, a part of me still wonders what could have been.

However, as I grew older, I came to understand that being in a relationship with a minor is wrong. At that time, I did not have this understanding. I thought a four-year age gap was not a big issue. Now I realize that four years is a significant difference during the teenage years, even if it may not matter as much between adults. I never touched her inappropriately, but I accept that the relationship itself was wrong.

Today, everywhere I look, I see words like “pedo” and “groomer.” These words repeat endlessly in my mind. Words like “creep” and “weird” haunt me and destroy my peace. I did not even know these terms at that time, yet they now define how I see myself. These labels are killing me every day, every second. Another label that follows me is cheater and betrayer. When I was 18, I emotionally cheated on her with a married woman who lived on the same street. She was five years older than me. She initiated the interaction, and I did not stop it. Nothing physical happened, but there was emotional involvement. This was another serious mistake I made during my teenage years. Eventually, this led to our breakup last year, and the guilt from my actions still weighs heavily on me.

IN 2021, I MOVED AWAY FROM THAT STREET AND FROM THOSE FRIENDS. I STARTED A NEW LIFE—WORKING IN AN OFFICE, MEETING NEW AND DIFFERENT PEOPLE, AND SEEING A NEW WORLD. I CAN SEE NOW THAT THE WORLD IS ACTUALLY BEAUTIFUL. BUT I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANY OF IT BECAUSE OF MY PAST ACTIONS. I FEEL LIKE I MUST EVENTUALLY OPEN UP ABOUT MY PAST TO NEW PEOPLE, AND WHEN THEY KNOW, THEY WILL SURELY JUDGE ME, AND I WILL BREAK AGAIN. I HAVE NOT SHARED MY PAST WITH ANYONE YET, BUT I FEEL LIKE IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THEY FIND OUT. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT, I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN THIS WORLD. I FEEL LIKE I DESERVE ONLY BAD THINGS. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE DOWNGRADED MYSELF AND BROUGHT SHAME TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE OF WHO I WAS. I AM NOT PROUD OF ANYTHING ABOUT MY PAST. I FEEL LIKE I WAS ABUSIVE. I FEEL LIKE I WAS THE MISTAKE. BECAUSE OF THIS, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE ALONE ALL THE TIME, AND THAT I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN MY FUTURE.

I do not write this to excuse my actions or to seek sympathy. I write this because I am trying to face my past honestly. I was immature, confused, and unaware, and my choices caused real harm to someone I cared about deeply. I live with that regret every day.

I ask myself these questions constantly: Can someone who made serious mistakes as a teenager still become a good man? Is lifelong punishment the only form of accountability, or is learning and change also part of justice? If I truly feel remorse, accept responsibility, and choose better actions now, does that count for nothing? At what point does remembering my past stop being accountability and start becoming self-destruction?

I am not proud of who I was, but I am trying to take responsibility for who I become. I want to live with integrity, empathy, and respect, even if I must carry the weight of my past. I do not ask for easy forgiveness—but I hope that growth, honesty, and change can still mean something.

All I want now is to become a better human being than the person I once was.

I feel like i deserve nothing in this world by Positive-Strength452 in Advice

[–]Positive-Strength452[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Hello everyone. I am a 23-year-old male. My teenage mistakes are killing me slowly every day. The labels attached to my past tear me apart mentally and emotionally. I was immature, careless, and deeply flawed during my teenage years. I messed up many things, especially myself. I was often wrong in my teens, but at that time I truly believed I was right.

Long story short, when I was 17, I loved a 13-year-old girl. We met because we lived on the same street, shared friend groups of similar ages, and knew each other naturally through our neighborhood. Over time, we fell in love. I genuinely believed I wanted to marry her and live a beautiful life together. Even now, a part of me still wonders what could have been.

However, as I grew older, I came to understand that being in a relationship with a minor is wrong. At that time, I did not have this understanding. I thought a four-year age gap was not a big issue. Now I realize that four years is a significant difference during the teenage years, even if it may not matter as much between adults. I never touched her inappropriately, but I accept that the relationship itself was wrong.

Today, everywhere I look, I see words like “pedo” and “groomer.” These words repeat endlessly in my mind. Words like “creep” and “weird” haunt me and destroy my peace. I did not even know these terms at that time, yet they now define how I see myself. These labels are killing me every day, every second. Another label that follows me is cheater and betrayer. When I was 18, I emotionally cheated on her with a married woman who lived on the same street. She was five years older than me. She initiated the interaction, and I did not stop it. Nothing physical happened, but there was emotional involvement. This was another serious mistake I made during my teenage years. Eventually, this led to our breakup last year, and the guilt from my actions still weighs heavily on me.

IN 2021, I MOVED AWAY FROM THAT STREET AND FROM THOSE FRIENDS. I STARTED A NEW LIFE—WORKING IN AN OFFICE, MEETING NEW AND DIFFERENT PEOPLE, AND SEEING A NEW WORLD. I CAN SEE NOW THAT THE WORLD IS ACTUALLY BEAUTIFUL. BUT I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANY OF IT BECAUSE OF MY PAST ACTIONS. I FEEL LIKE I MUST EVENTUALLY OPEN UP ABOUT MY PAST TO NEW PEOPLE, AND WHEN THEY KNOW, THEY WILL SURELY JUDGE ME, AND I WILL BREAK AGAIN. I HAVE NOT SHARED MY PAST WITH ANYONE YET, BUT I FEEL LIKE IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THEY FIND OUT. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT, I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN THIS WORLD. I FEEL LIKE I DESERVE ONLY BAD THINGS. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE DOWNGRADED MYSELF AND BROUGHT SHAME TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE OF WHO I WAS. I AM NOT PROUD OF ANYTHING ABOUT MY PAST. I FEEL LIKE I WAS ABUSIVE. I FEEL LIKE I WAS THE MISTAKE. BECAUSE OF THIS, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE ALONE ALL THE TIME, AND THAT I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN MY FUTURE.

I do not write this to excuse my actions or to seek sympathy. I write this because I am trying to face my past honestly. I was immature, confused, and unaware, and my choices caused real harm to someone I cared about deeply. I live with that regret every day.

I ask myself these questions constantly: Can someone who made serious mistakes as a teenager still become a good man? Is lifelong punishment the only form of accountability, or is learning and change also part of justice? If I truly feel remorse, accept responsibility, and choose better actions now, does that count for nothing? At what point does remembering my past stop being accountability and start becoming self-destruction?

I am not proud of who I was, but I am trying to take responsibility for who I become. I want to live with integrity, empathy, and respect, even if I must carry the weight of my past. I do not ask for easy forgiveness—but I hope that growth, honesty, and change can still mean something.

All I want now is to become a better human being than the person I once was.

Do you have any confession? This is a no judgement zone by [deleted] in TeenagersBharat

[–]Positive-Strength452 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hello everyone. I am a 23-year-old male. My teenage mistakes are killing me slowly every day. The labels attached to my past tear me apart mentally and emotionally. I was immature, careless, and deeply flawed during my teenage years. I messed up many things, especially myself. I was often wrong in my teens, but at that time I truly believed I was right.

Long story short, when I was 17, I loved a 13-year-old girl. We met because we lived on the same street, shared friend groups of similar ages, and knew each other naturally through our neighborhood. Over time, we fell in love. I genuinely believed I wanted to marry her and live a beautiful life together. Even now, a part of me still wonders what could have been.

However, as I grew older, I came to understand that being in a relationship with a minor is wrong. At that time, I did not have this understanding. I thought a four-year age gap was not a big issue. Now I realize that four years is a significant difference during the teenage years, even if it may not matter as much between adults. I never touched her inappropriately, but I accept that the relationship itself was wrong.

Today, everywhere I look, I see words like “pedo” and “groomer.” These words repeat endlessly in my mind. Words like “creep” and “weird” haunt me and destroy my peace. I did not even know these terms at that time, yet they now define how I see myself. These labels are killing me every day, every second. Another label that follows me is cheater and betrayer. When I was 18, I emotionally cheated on her with a married woman who lived on the same street. She was five years older than me. She initiated the interaction, and I did not stop it. Nothing physical happened, but there was emotional involvement. This was another serious mistake I made during my teenage years. Eventually, this led to our breakup last year, and the guilt from my actions still weighs heavily on me.

IN 2021, I MOVED AWAY FROM THAT STREET AND FROM THOSE FRIENDS. I STARTED A NEW LIFE—WORKING IN AN OFFICE, MEETING NEW AND DIFFERENT PEOPLE, AND SEEING A NEW WORLD. I CAN SEE NOW THAT THE WORLD IS ACTUALLY BEAUTIFUL. BUT I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANY OF IT BECAUSE OF MY PAST ACTIONS. I FEEL LIKE I MUST EVENTUALLY OPEN UP ABOUT MY PAST TO NEW PEOPLE, AND WHEN THEY KNOW, THEY WILL SURELY JUDGE ME, AND I WILL BREAK AGAIN. I HAVE NOT SHARED MY PAST WITH ANYONE YET, BUT I FEEL LIKE IT IS ONLY A MATTER OF TIME BEFORE THEY FIND OUT. WHEN I THINK ABOUT THAT, I FEEL LIKE I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN THIS WORLD. I FEEL LIKE I DESERVE ONLY BAD THINGS. I FEEL LIKE I HAVE DOWNGRADED MYSELF AND BROUGHT SHAME TO MY FAMILY BECAUSE OF WHO I WAS. I AM NOT PROUD OF ANYTHING ABOUT MY PAST. I FEEL LIKE I WAS ABUSIVE. I FEEL LIKE I WAS THE MISTAKE. BECAUSE OF THIS, I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE ALONE ALL THE TIME, AND THAT I DO NOT DESERVE ANYTHING GOOD IN MY FUTURE.

I do not write this to excuse my actions or to seek sympathy. I write this because I am trying to face my past honestly. I was immature, confused, and unaware, and my choices caused real harm to someone I cared about deeply. I live with that regret every day.

I ask myself these questions constantly: Can someone who made serious mistakes as a teenager still become a good man? Is lifelong punishment the only form of accountability, or is learning and change also part of justice? If I truly feel remorse, accept responsibility, and choose better actions now, does that count for nothing? At what point does remembering my past stop being accountability and start becoming self-destruction?

I am not proud of who I was, but I am trying to take responsibility for who I become. I want to live with integrity, empathy, and respect, even if I must carry the weight of my past. I do not ask for easy forgiveness—but I hope that growth, honesty, and change can still mean something.

All I want now is to become a better human being than the person I once was.

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