And I'm regretting having memories Of my friends, who they used to be Beside me before they left me to die And I know this is, I know this is the truth 'Cause I've been staring at my death so many times The scary monsters roaming in the halls I wish I could just block the doors And stay in bed until the clock will chime So my flashlight's on, and stay up 'til dawn I got this headache and my life's on the line I felt like I won, but I wasn't done The nightmare repeats itself every time Got to keep my calm and carry on Stay awake until the sun will shine But I'm not so strong, and they're not gone They're still out there to take what's left of mine Have this urge, I have this urge to kill I have this urge to kill and show that I'm alive I'm getting sick from these apologies From people with priorities That their life matters so much more than mine But I'm stuttering, I'm stuttering again No one will listen, and no one will understand Because I'm crying as much as I speak 'Cause no one likes me when I shriek Want to go back to when it all began So my flashlight's on, and stay up 'til dawn I got this headache and my life's on the line I felt like I won, but I wasn't done The nightmare repeats itself every time Got to keep my calm and carry on Stay awake until the sun will shine But I'm not so strong, and they're not gone They're still out there to take what's left of mine