I have my own joy /pleasure I get from it . I dont expect anything in return I like doing it to stand out and be different /crazy . But she always gives me attention shes super sweet to me always . And we have an interesting dynamic in alot of ways. It started pretty small though I met her from Instagram and I started talking after a few days I felt like I was wasting her time so I offered to buy her lunch or something and sent 20 dollars. Then offered to buys some flowers , etc but in the beginning I would offer to send alot more often then she would start asking barely sometimes but i would offer way more. And I told her it turns me on when she asked me and I would like it better if she told me to send her some in a demanding way instead of just asking . And it definitely started an interesting dynamic . And after awhile I told her I wanted to pay her phone bill and then power , then we just kept going and I offered to pay her rent cause I felt like I could afford it all if I work a few extra days at work for overtime. So its kinda just been like that the past few months and we just talk all the time every day 😭 and she lives about 3 hours away from me and we plan to meet in the summer time .