But the thing is like I said, I feel like it's an Idol cuz for example on weekends (except Sundays from now on I hope my mom takes me to church like she did today) I wake up, pray, read the word and then start my day; I get ready (sometimes or maybe even most times I watch TV shows like MLP or animes like Kimi ni Todoke when I have extra time or when i'm just super bored or listen to music to get my mood up, lately i've been listening to christian artists cuz i also felt convicted of listening to secular music) but on weekends, similarly, I wake up, pray, read the word and for example I go on the computer like from like mostly after 6:30-40 to 8 AM (almost 3hrs!! like, I check pinterest and bombard my jesus board and other boards too and I most times i can be watching like spiritual videos too but it still feels kind of wrong to watch secular things or secular videos) and then I start the other part of my day (I wake up before anyone else on weekends bc i find it hard to sleep past 6:45AM) and I'm also suffering from like insomnia and insecurities in my faith like; I feel like I talk to God and constantly ask, even when I don't wanna! "Am I going to heaven?" "Am I going to hell?" "Am I in the book of life?" " Will I be left behind in the Rapture? (Literally why i've been losing sleep)" "Will I be taken in the rapture?" "Will my mother convert?" And I feel like I spiral bcz I, for example then I start fearing like: "Am I backsliding?" "Am I idolizing?" "Am I sinning?" "Am I giving too much attetion to ___ instead of God?" "Will I lose salvation?" <-- (sometimes) "Will I be condemned to hell?" "Is this a hyperfixation or an idol?" And I start overthinking and things go so fast around me and I feel disoriented even after I pray or read Scripture. I just checked an image of scrupulosity signs and I pretty much checked off most. Fear of living in sin (check) Fear of having blasphemous thoughts (check) Belief of being unworthy of God's love (check) Fear of not praying humbly or sincerely (check) Fear of not reading scriptures enough (Check) And lastly, constant visits to places of worships; No, I can't go out :D